That lovely little "1"
Sunday, December 16, 2012
Today is day ONE of my brand new " on track " streak!
My previous streak ended yesterday due to a binge. I had been on track for 290 days! Wow, what a huge number, huh? And I am very proud of myself for it. But you know what? I'm even more proud of myself for TODAY! Yes, its only day one of my new streak, and 1 is such a small number compared to 290. But I'm proud of that lovely little "1", because of what it represents.
In the past, a binge would mean that I was totally off track. One bad day would ALWAYS lead to two bad days....or a week of bad days...or a month of bad days....or even several months of bad days. Falling off the wagon always meant a huge struggle to get myself back on the wagon again, with lots of self disgust and anger...and then giving up for a while.
But not this time! This time my binge was just one bad meal....not one bad day. I was angry and frustrated with myself for giving in to the junk food, but I picked myself right back up and got right back on track again. I didn't beat myself up for the slip. I didn't starve myself for the rest of the day to make up for the binge. I forgave myself and realized that it was just one moment of weakness. I realized that one bad moment didn't have to lead to one bad day.
When I woke up this morning, I had almost forgotten all about yesterdays binge! (I was reminded quickly, though, when I logged on to Sparks and saw that my blog from yesterday was a featured blog, lol.) But I didn't feel any regret for what I did yesterday. I actually felt optimistic and eager to start on my brand new day one!
This is my lifestyle now. Its not just a temporary diet. There will be bad days from time to time, but I know that I am strong enough to get back on track when those bad days happen. I know I will never give up on myself and my quest to be as healthy as I possibly can. I have no idea how long this new streak will last, but in the end it doesn't matter. As long as I keep putting forth my best effort to have more good days than bad ones, I will reach any goal I set for myself.