Sunday, December 16, 2012
I am coming out of my slump little by little. I ate better yesterday but still didn't get enough water. I made it to Zumba and then did a 30 minute hill interval workout on the treadmill afterwards. Part of me felt like I cheated myself for leaving at that point because I still had energy and wanted to do some strength training but-and this will only make sense for some of you-I did not want my hair to get TOO wet because I had somewhere to go that night. I am actually considering getting braids this spring because I know once it gets nice enough outside, I will be exercising like a crazy oerson and can't worry about my hair turning into an afro after spending 30 minutes straightening it.
Last night was Derrell's work Christmas party. This was his first year going. He isn't that social and I had to convince him to make an appearance. He looked SOOOOO good!
He didn't smile in this pic but he was all smiles all night. I asked him to take pics of me before hand and I don't know whether Derrell is just a horrible photographer or if I just looked THAT bad but the pictures were not good. I erased them and that set my mood going into the party. I felt fat, ugly, and I thought I looked old. My spirits were low and for once, I didn't want to go to the party. We ended up going anyway and I put on my game face. Derrell was suprising. He wanted to introduce me to a lot of people, to the point he was hunting some folks down saying he wanted them to meet his fiance. I started to feel better seeing his big smile and pride as he introduced me to people. Everyone was so nice and one woman told me I was gorgeous and she was proud of Derrell for having me. That felt great. Here is a pic of us taken by his co-worker
Here is a pic of me 6 months ago in a similar dress
I am still struggling with the loose skin on my arms and considering I still have 38 lbs to lose, it will only get worse. I am considering surgery to remove the excess skin. Thankfully, I have learned which angles make them look better.
At the dinner I had roasted pork (very lean), chicken, garlic mashed potatoes, broccoli, squash and carrots, a small salad and a roll. I also had a lemon bar, a few bites of chocolate cake (not that good) and a glass of wine. I ate very little all day not knowing what I would be eating. And the portions were pretty petite so I felt good about my day.
After the party I felt better and took a bathroom pic. Now I swore I would never, ever do that but the lighting in my bedroom is poor and I could not take a good a pic so I apologize in advance but here I am:
My last weigh-in I came in at 226.4 but I am sure I am closer to 228 in this pic after the week I had. I am going to kick it up a notch so that I can hit 222.1 by New Years!