Saturday, December 15, 2012
I really don't have much to say. I'm apparently doing something completely wrong - and I can't figure out what it is. I see people losing 1-2 pounds a week, even a half a pound, and it just makes me sad.
Because I lose nothing.
That's right. I've lost nothing since I joined Spark. Exactly 4 weeks ago.
I changed my diet a couple of days before I rejoined Spark - and lost 2 pounds - and for four solid weeks, despite meeting 5/6 or 6/6 nutrition ranges every day, exercising almost every day, and being as varied as possible in my meals and in my workouts - I've lost nothing. Nada.
I've had a really bad week emotionally, but I didn't overeat. I did most things right this week, considering. I'm still not doing well in that department and I'm almost at the point where I desperately ask people what on earth I do just to survive. Because I feel like a fraud - like I'm just pretending to stay afloat in life.
Before I continue to ramble... I really came here to say I've got nothing. I'm going to Trader Joe's tomorrow with my mom, I found a bunch of new healthy smoothie recipes (all of which I grouped and entered into Spark earlier) and a few quinoa dishes to try, so hopefully on December 22nd, I'll see some sort of deficit on the scale. I won't give up. I won't stop what I'm doing. I won't stop strength training, playing my EA Sports game, or anything else. I'm just really sad that I really have seen no progress. I can feel a few muscles here and there, but literally that's the only progress, in four weeks, I can feel. That's kind of lame.
Hopefully for my sake and yours I'm in better spirits soon.