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Wk 88 Weigh In

Saturday, December 15, 2012

Well this week was cold and disappointing.

42-45 degrees at 10:30 when I normally go to the gym, not cold for some people, but really cold for me! I did get to the gym each day (M-F), so that was good, but my weigh in was still disappointing.

Also, I came to the conclusion on Tuesday that I am a square peg in a world of round holes. I don't seem to fit in anywhere. I always feel like a social misfit; no matter how many people I am gathered with, I seem to be the 'odd man out' or the 3rd (5th, 7th, 9th, etc.) wheel. In one social circle, I am odd because I'm not an artist, tattooed, pierced or smoking weed. In another social circle I'm odd because I'm not a techie, not up on all the latest gadgets, etc. It's like this pretty much wherever I am, I am the one person that doesn't quite fit in and Somehow I just became aware of this fact this week.

Please don't misconstrue what I've written as a plea for pity or any of that type of stuff. This is my blog, a place where I can write what I honestly think and feel, and that is what I am thinking and feeling. :)


Here's this weeks numbers.

Weight : 216.6
Lost : .4
Total : 100.6

I was rather unhappy when I saw a loss of .4 on the scale this morning, yeah, I know it's still a loss, but I really busted my ass this week at the gym and while my eating wasn't the greatest, I kept it within range. Some weeks it just feels like I can't win!

Ken Heaston
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KIYOSHI04 1/2/2013 1:59PM

    i dont fit in either. anywhere.
its sometimes sad, sometimes a blessing.

congratulations on your loss, though you werent exactly thrilled.

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CLPURNELL 12/19/2012 3:52PM

    It is probably a muscle building week. You built muscle which offset some of your fat loss. Man I too am an odd ball. I take pride and a certain comfort in that. Having the guts to march to your own drum. To be honest and interested in what YOU like is a rare commodity these days. All the "not fitting in" means is you are not willing to compromise who you are for other people. There should be more odd men out like us the world would be a better place!

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GRANDEFILLE 12/17/2012 12:19AM

    you should know that now that you have so much less to lose, the losses can't be what they used to! that .6 is what in percentages? Congratulations on it and congratulations on knowing you are special and unique!

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TEACHFIRST268 12/16/2012 8:37PM

    Sorry you're disappointed with this week's results, but keep pushing! Your results may just take another week to catch up with you. You'll get there - you've lost 100+ pounds, for crying out loud! Yep...no doubt about it. No way you're going to let a .6 stop you. (Which was a LOSS by the way! :o) )

I know EXACTLY what you're saying - I often feel the same way. And not in a self-pity kind of way, just a growing older, learning more about (and becoming more confident in) myself kind of way. And having this conversation with my husband - HE often feels the same way - and WE, as a couple - often feel the same way in regards to friendships with other adults...not quite sure where we fit in... My husband and I joke and ask each other - are we the only 'normal' people left? we're becoming more secure in who we are, and can find things to enjoy and appreciate in others - and recognize and appreciate the differences, some for the better, some for the worse. Just part of growing as a person, I suppose. That said - I agree with what another poster said - get out and keep trying new things! It's always exciting to meet new people.

Have a great week!







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_BABE_ 12/16/2012 2:23PM

    I could make a joke about the weather but its too easy...lol As for the misfit thing Nightskystar is right its all about your perspective. Over the years I have thought the same thing...I don't have a lot in common with my friends ( different ages, income brackets and life situations don't always make things easy) I need some soul mates!! I guess we both gravitate to people unlike ourselves..it makes life more interesting. Although I understand the need to be mirrored back in the eyes of another, I like the idea of after being stripped of all identifying factors someone likes me for ME...don't you? emoticon

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RIBKNIT 12/16/2012 1:04PM

    Thanks for writing this blog. My scale didn't budge this week and it's frustrating. Is it possible in your case that fat is turning into muscle because of exercising?
When it comes to the misfit thing, I've often felt that way. I have now discovered that "my" kind were of people were out there, just hard to find so I went down a lot of blind alleys along the way.

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BRITT831 12/16/2012 6:14AM

    Not fitting in can be such a bummer but guess what!? U are still YOU! And as long as u continue to be true to who u are, the world is URS! Maybe its just not ur time to be social right now. Maybe the Divine wants u to focus more on ur weight loss right now and will place the right ppl in ur life when ur ready to handle it. Just my thoughts on it. emoticon Continue to stay true to YOURSELF and lif will fall into place....
emoticon Today is a new day! emoticon
Britt

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LISAN0415 12/15/2012 10:15PM

    Hi there!

You know next week you may see an even bigger loss on the scale, sometimes it takes our body a couple days to flush out the fat!

you are doing great, and it stinks when friends are too busy or don't invite us on things, but that's when it's time to expand our circle- the best way to do that is to try some new things, a class at the community college, volunteer at a hospital once a month, and if you are a spiritual person, places of worship have lots of groups and activities!

Best wishes to you, I know today felt like a down day for you, but sometimes we need to stop and count our blessing- it's the best way to get rich quick! :)

Lisa

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DOVESEYES 12/15/2012 10:08PM

    I think you rock!!!

It's great to be yourself on the blogs, you are honest with YOURSELF by listing the loss and as you said 'it is a loss' Remember when you didn't? Just that is a huge step. emoticon How do your clothes feel? Look for a positive ;)

It's easy to tell you are a great guy by the kind things you say to people you don't know.

You are an original and it's great you have friends from lots of backgrounds, jobs, etc.

It's hard to not let the weight take over but you are so many other things; time to regroup we are all for you. emoticon emoticon

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NIGHTSKYSTAR 12/15/2012 6:58PM

    it always sucks when you KNOW you did good but the scale doesnt. Sorry about that!!
as for the social misfit thing..well..i guess i'm a one of a kind because i never CARED. i dont do drugs, but hung out with some who did. i'm not a geek, but some of my friends are. I dont wear makeup and designer clothes, but lots of my friends to. I'm comfortable with myself, so i guess they just figure oh well...hahah
keep em guessing, Ken..you are alright!

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JULIA_211 12/15/2012 6:17PM

    I can relate to feeling like a social misfit. I stopped drinking over 12 years ago, and it is still tough to be in social settings. That's why I love sparkpeople, you can be yourself, and feel free to express yourself without judgment. You know you stuck to your range, that's all that matters! Keep going strong! emoticon

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MARYDSAN 12/15/2012 6:10PM

    Congratulations on your weight loss this week. Yeah, I know, sometimes the weeks we work the hardest disappoint us with the results; but we are not mathematical equations that let the results show at the precise time of our weigh in. Your efforts will be rewarded in due time. Keep up the good work! Who needs a tattoo, your results are impressive enough!








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