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Failure is the opportunity to begin again....


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Saturday, December 15, 2012




"Failure is only the opportunity to begin again more intelligently." (Henry Ford)

On March first, I started streaking, doing my best to make each day as healthy as possible. At that time I weighed 286 lbs. I was living a very sedentary lifestyle and living on mostly junk food. Every day was full of pain; the physical pain of obesity from sore knees, hips, feet and everything else...along with the emotional pain of being embarrassed by how I looked and by my own lack of control over food. When I finally just got so sick of myself that I couldn't stand it anymore, I decided to make a change. I just wanted to try to do as much as I could to reclaim my health and self esteem. So I decided to start streaking. My goal was to just make each day as healthy as I possibly could.



When I started my streak, I had no idea how many days in a row I would be able to go. I thought for sure I would have to start over...and over...and over. But a funny thing happened. I found that with each successful day I had, I gained strength and determination to just keep going to the next day, and the next. I would wake up every morning feeling proud of myself for the hard work I'd done the day before. Each workout made me feel strong and confident that I could keep going, that I could do more. Each time I ate a healthy meal, it felt like my body was thanking me for treating it with respect. As the days turned into weeks, I started building up my workout time, from 15 minutes a day to 45...to 60...to more.

I was losing weight and inches, but more importantly, I was gaining LIFE. I've said this before but I'll say it again...as my body got smaller, my life got bigger! I stopped thinking of this as a streak, and started thinking of it as a lifestyle. I became a completely different person...not just thinner, but happier, more confident, more optimistic, and healthier. I was thinking that it would be possible for me to make my streak last for an entire year!




Unfortunately, my streak ended today. I let stress and money worries get to me, and I binged...a HUGE binge! Afterwards, I felt so remorseful and sick. The weight of that disgusting junk food in my stomach made me feel physically ill. It amazes me that I used to binge like that all the time! How did I ever live that way? It does not feel good to gorge yourself on food.



So my streak has ended...but a new one is starting. Am I disappointed that my streak has ended? Yes, I am. But I'm not beating myself up about it. It was a mistake...and I have learned from it. I've learned that I do not EVER want to go back to the old me. I know what I want...I want to be healthy, fit, and trim. And I know what I need to do in order to make that happen, so I am getting right back to work. I have a light, healthy dinner planned. I am not going to starve myself to make up for that binge. I'm just getting myself back on track, and looking ahead.

I am never going to give up. This was just a setback, not the end of the road.


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FRANCES-AGAPE 12/16/2012 11:02PM

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Great attitude !


Have a Marvelous Monday

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KHALIA2 12/16/2012 11:01PM

  I like your attitude! emoticon

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CICELY360 12/16/2012 10:39PM

  Good lesson for all of us. Keep moving forward.

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QTEALADY20031 12/16/2012 10:36PM

    Pixie. emoticon You always know what you need to do!!! Good for you!! emoticon emoticon emoticon June

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LOGOULD 12/16/2012 10:29PM

    This has been one of the hardest lessons for me....and I am still learning it! Thanks for being so vulnerable and reminding us that it is okay to be human (now and then)! emoticon emoticon

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CKAYTHOMAS 12/16/2012 10:26PM

    emoticon So motivational!

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SUSIESLIM62 12/16/2012 10:03PM

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THOMS1 12/16/2012 9:59PM

    A 9 month streak? That is wonderful. emoticon

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GOOSIEMOON 12/16/2012 9:55PM

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ONLYTEMPORARY 12/16/2012 9:40PM

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MONIBELLY 12/16/2012 9:16PM

    Pixie... you are the one of the most incredible women I have ever met. Your heartfelt honesty is amazing and I so appreciate it. I would not consider this a break in your streak, but a learning experience that shows you that you are more than just the number of days that you tally. I am in awe of your ability to take this and just pick up your skirt and move forward.

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LTMURPHY7 12/16/2012 9:15PM

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ROCKYCPA 12/16/2012 9:13PM

    Grest blog - thanks for sharing!

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BESSHAILE 12/16/2012 9:13PM

    you go girl!

reminds me of the time, 4 years after I quit smoking - when I let stress and worries take over - talk about making yourself sick!

wooee

Now you get a chance to begin a brand new streak! how cool is that?

{{{hugs}}}

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ESCHLETZ 12/16/2012 8:29PM

    Wonderful blog. You have done amazing things so far, can't wait to hear of all the fantastic things that you will continue to do for yourself. And in taking care of you, and sharing with us, you're helping many of us make great choices for ourselves too. Thank you.

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PATTIE441 12/16/2012 8:20PM

    Girl! You are beautiful and an inspiration! I have binged also. But tomorrow is a new day and new way! We ARE doing it my friend! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NOTSOFLUFFYDAD 12/16/2012 8:19PM

    We all have issues at times that cause us to have a momentary lapse of sanity... you know it and your attitude about it is great.

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ILIKETOZUMBA 12/16/2012 8:08PM

    Your attitude is absolutely inspiring. A lot of people would really let this get them down, but you just dusted yourself off and got right back on track, no fuss. Amazing. Thank you for sharing. :)

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JUNEAU2010 12/16/2012 8:00PM

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HDHAWK 12/16/2012 7:56PM

    Good for you! Every mistake gives us a lesson. emoticon

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MARITIMER3 12/16/2012 7:47PM

    You are a success. You didn't quit.

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DIANNEMT 12/16/2012 7:37PM

    Good for you.

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4KWALK 12/16/2012 7:20PM

    You have no idea how much I needed this inspiration today. I have slipped back into the old lifestyle and have been here for a week. I read your post and thought to myself I can restart my streak again too.
What an inspiring blog.
Thank you so much.
I too do not want to go back into the old way of eating but I did slip so now I know how easy it is to fall back into that old unhealthy way of living. Now I am more aware.
Thank you again.

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SLIMLEAF 12/16/2012 6:59PM

    What a positive attitude!

And I'm sure that it's precisely such a positive attitude that will earn you the success you desire.

Now, if only I can follow your example....

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PENNI68 12/16/2012 6:58PM

    This is a great blog and just think how wonderful your first streak was and how much better your second one is going to be!! Your doing it, that is what matters, good for you!!

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SOFEDUPP 12/16/2012 6:57PM

    Thanks for the great blog and the inspiration to keep working at this!!!!!!

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OBURRELL 12/16/2012 6:53PM

    It's ok...you've had done an awesome job. You inspired me to try to do a healthy streak and even though I failed in the first week I am determined to try again. Every day is a success because you woke up!

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NADINEL 12/16/2012 6:28PM

    Pixie,
I love your honesty with this streak. You have inspired me so much to 'just do it'. It has helped me get back on track. I am learning from my choices also. Many emoticon emoticon

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BRENNA84 12/16/2012 6:26PM

    awesome! thanx.

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SPSPSP1 12/16/2012 6:17PM

    Great attitude!

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WAIKATOKAT 12/16/2012 6:00PM

    Thanks for the inspiration. emoticon

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SUNNYLIFE72 12/16/2012 5:39PM

  Yes, forigve yourself and move on. It's a good lesson.

I like your quote, "as my body got smaller, my life got bigger!"

LOVE it! Thanks for sharing!

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MARYJEANSL 12/16/2012 5:35PM

  Well said - and I agree completely. When setbacks happen, one just has to get up again and get back to work. Best of luck!

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JOHNMARTINMILES 12/16/2012 5:02PM

    Great blog!

Make Today a Great Day!

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NEWCHINELO 12/16/2012 4:54PM

    You are a strong woman. Your post just came at the right time after a weekend of lack of exercises and poor feeding habits . . . The funny thing is that these poor foods make me sick. Getting back on track right away.


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AMARILYNH 12/16/2012 4:45PM

    emoticon So very true!!

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APPLEPIEAPPLE 12/16/2012 4:35PM

    You are never finished until you give up.

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CRYSTLE4HIMTX12 12/16/2012 4:26PM

    emoticon Way to get right back on the wagon. That is what makes you a winner. You keep pushing forward.

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LSIG14 12/16/2012 4:04PM

    Thank you so much for the reminder that a slip is not a fall. It's not all or nothing, it's one streak at a time!,

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NETSUE64 12/16/2012 4:01PM

    Thanks for sharing this because I've messed up a streak of my own today. It helps to know I'm not alone, that everyone out there isn't perfect either.

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JAMARIGOLD 12/16/2012 4:00PM

    Awesome blog! Thank you for writing it and for the quotes you used. We'll just call it a mid-course correction shall we? I'm glad it was just a blip on the screen and that youre back on your streak! It's a good lesson for us all. Thanks for sharing!!

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SUNNYSIDEUPMARY 12/16/2012 3:59PM

    THANK YOU for sharing your experience and thoughts here! I like the "kindsight" posting!

You've inspired me to track my less-than-ideal choices, and move on. Thank you!

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WALLINMW 12/16/2012 3:51PM

  Awesome my friend!

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J2740LOU 12/16/2012 3:19PM

    emoticon Great Blog! Thanks for sharing. Perfection isn't required. Just do your best and learn from your mistakes or you're bound to repeat them. emoticon

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KARRENLYNN 12/16/2012 3:15PM

    I certainly can relate to the stress and money worries. And I've handled it the same way you did. Be proud of the streak you had because you earned it.

People aren't perfect so don't beat yourself up over your binge. You already have the right attitude. You're looking at weight loss as a lifestyle change so 1 binge isn't going to break you unless you let it. You've already decided to get back on track with healthier decisions so you will definately succeed.

You are awesome, and you can do it!

Karen

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ONMYMEDS 12/16/2012 3:05PM

    Great blog, great attitude. You are a winner.

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