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Failure is the opportunity to begin again....

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Saturday, December 15, 2012




"Failure is only the opportunity to begin again more intelligently." (Henry Ford)

On March first, I started streaking, doing my best to make each day as healthy as possible. At that time I weighed 286 lbs. I was living a very sedentary lifestyle and living on mostly junk food. Every day was full of pain; the physical pain of obesity from sore knees, hips, feet and everything else...along with the emotional pain of being embarrassed by how I looked and by my own lack of control over food. When I finally just got so sick of myself that I couldn't stand it anymore, I decided to make a change. I just wanted to try to do as much as I could to reclaim my health and self esteem. So I decided to start streaking. My goal was to just make each day as healthy as I possibly could.



When I started my streak, I had no idea how many days in a row I would be able to go. I thought for sure I would have to start over...and over...and over. But a funny thing happened. I found that with each successful day I had, I gained strength and determination to just keep going to the next day, and the next. I would wake up every morning feeling proud of myself for the hard work I'd done the day before. Each workout made me feel strong and confident that I could keep going, that I could do more. Each time I ate a healthy meal, it felt like my body was thanking me for treating it with respect. As the days turned into weeks, I started building up my workout time, from 15 minutes a day to 45...to 60...to more.

I was losing weight and inches, but more importantly, I was gaining LIFE. I've said this before but I'll say it again...as my body got smaller, my life got bigger! I stopped thinking of this as a streak, and started thinking of it as a lifestyle. I became a completely different person...not just thinner, but happier, more confident, more optimistic, and healthier. I was thinking that it would be possible for me to make my streak last for an entire year!




Unfortunately, my streak ended today. I let stress and money worries get to me, and I binged...a HUGE binge! Afterwards, I felt so remorseful and sick. The weight of that disgusting junk food in my stomach made me feel physically ill. It amazes me that I used to binge like that all the time! How did I ever live that way? It does not feel good to gorge yourself on food.



So my streak has ended...but a new one is starting. Am I disappointed that my streak has ended? Yes, I am. But I'm not beating myself up about it. It was a mistake...and I have learned from it. I've learned that I do not EVER want to go back to the old me. I know what I want...I want to be healthy, fit, and trim. And I know what I need to do in order to make that happen, so I am getting right back to work. I have a light, healthy dinner planned. I am not going to starve myself to make up for that binge. I'm just getting myself back on track, and looking ahead.

I am never going to give up. This was just a setback, not the end of the road.


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LAWANDMUSIC 12/17/2012 2:59PM

    Thanks for sharing!

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PORTIAWILLIS 12/17/2012 2:56PM

    What a wonderful spirit you have. Thanks for the courage to write us about your slip. I sometimes want to hide my slips not only from others but myself as well. I will try not to let it get me depressed when I slip but it always comes back to haunt me. As I read of others struggles it helps me realize I am not alone. Thanks again for your input.

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CHOCOCAT78 12/17/2012 2:41PM

    It was an opportunity for you to learn and you did. Now you can just keep moving on. It just gets better from here. emoticon emoticon

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GOHAWKIS1 12/17/2012 2:35PM

    I sincerely appreciate your comments and your attitude toward "slipping". I needed to read this because I messed up BIG TIME last week with a treat day at work. We have another one this week, and your comments will help me get beyond it. Thanks.

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IMAGINE46 12/17/2012 2:19PM

  You go girl!

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UCANMAKEIT 12/17/2012 2:11PM

    Thanks for sharing your story! I am starting again today after a long...3 month set back. Its ok. Life is hard sometimes. Thanks for the inspiration! You are an amazing person.

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GODWILLING723 12/17/2012 2:10PM

    WOW!!! Well said!!! There are many times we use "lapses" as a reason to go back to our old and unhealthy ways...it takes so much self discipline and self worth to realize that is not where we want to be again... i have had many MANY lapses and instead of beating myself up, i start over....thats very important in life...the ability to get back up and keep going!!!! Cudos to you!!

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BRASKIN 12/17/2012 1:48PM

  thanks...needed a kick in the behind to let the past be just that.... past.

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JB122383 12/17/2012 1:36PM

    You made me think today about all the setbacks that I allowed to happen to me, but NOT like you, I would just give up. You've given me the inspiration to know that I CAN get back on track!

Thank you for such a motivational blog!!

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FARFROMASAINT 12/17/2012 1:34PM

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123BECKY 12/17/2012 1:04PM

    Amazing blog

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DMSGLASS 12/17/2012 12:31PM

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IN102WIN 12/17/2012 12:19PM

    emoticon for sharing! I admire the fact that you admitted it by actually writing a blog and putting it out there!! I would not have done that. Next time that I falter I'll remember your blog thanks again!!

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FIRECOM 12/17/2012 12:16PM

    A wonderful story. Well written and it comes from the heart. I thank you and wish you well on your journey.

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HFAYE81 12/17/2012 11:49AM

    Awesome!! What an amazing revelation. Thank you for sharing your journey!! emoticon

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DEBLYNN323 12/17/2012 11:32AM

    Great blog! Thanks for sharing!

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SISTAS0NYA 12/17/2012 11:22AM

    Thanks for sharing this inspiration! emoticon

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LAFEMMEDELALUNE 12/17/2012 10:56AM

    You are seriously inspiring me today!
Thank You!! emoticon

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ZINNER44 12/17/2012 10:54AM

    Awesome! Thanks for sharing.

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JEN1041 12/17/2012 10:52AM

  This was very inspiring to me - keep on streaking - beat your last one!

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ROMEOSMOM27 12/17/2012 10:50AM

    Great story thanks for sharing it, emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SAMMI4444 12/17/2012 10:35AM

    That's awesome! Thanks for sharing :)

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SUSIEMT 12/17/2012 10:08AM

    I am so proud of you that you were able to share this stumble with us. And especially that you are starting your new streak. Streaks were made to be broken. Small comfort isn't it. You learned something valuable from this. You are a strong person! Keep up the good work.

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FARIS71 12/17/2012 10:01AM

    And I see that your are on day 1 of your new streak now. Walking the talk!

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DJSHIP46 12/17/2012 9:42AM

    You're very brave to share your journey... both ups and downs!!!

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HLOCHRIDGE 12/17/2012 9:29AM

    Great blog!

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KJELLYBEAN15 12/17/2012 9:15AM

    Just don't let this get you down. We are not perfect. Learn from this what you can and keep moving forward. Lean on others when you need to. You are doing a great job and you ARE worth it.

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TRICIAE2 12/17/2012 9:12AM

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BUSMOM27 12/17/2012 9:00AM

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NILLAPEPSI 12/17/2012 8:50AM

    You lasted a super long time. This next streak could last even longer. emoticon

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MISSFORTE 12/17/2012 8:46AM

    WAY TO GO!

thank U for the reminders why we want to streak!

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DESERTJULZ 12/17/2012 8:28AM

    Great post. Awesome streak - that is a long time to go on a streak!

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LEANMEAN2 12/17/2012 8:28AM

    Thanks for sharing. I believe this is the story of my life.

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KATHIC2 12/17/2012 8:21AM

  Been there...set back, over eat, fill horrible. Get your focus back and move on. Do not judge yourself, we all have set backs. You have found a way that works for you,

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SHIRE33 12/17/2012 8:05AM

    You are so right! And these set back are learning experiences. I wrote a blog today about my reset (Again! Some of us are slow learners. :D). I've gained about 30 pounds from my low of 152 in late August, so I am getting back on track after a very stressful period. The good thing is that we know what we are capable of!



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HOPEFILL 12/17/2012 7:49AM

    Thanks for sharing - you helped me start today off right!

I think you're doing something pretty amazing! Keep up the great work!

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NANNABLACK 12/17/2012 7:39AM

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SIZE8NOTSOMUCH 12/17/2012 7:25AM

    I love in your last paragraph "it" was not capitalized in the beginning of the sentence. I'm not sure if you did that on purpose, but "it" only goes to show that 'it' has no power over you. Today, you will be, again, and travel that road of life.
GOOD FOR YOU!


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LRSILVER 12/17/2012 7:11AM

    Great Blog. Keep it up!

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JSTETSER 12/17/2012 5:46AM

    I needed that today!

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WEARINGTHIN 12/17/2012 2:31AM

    From what I read, you don't need my comment. Glenn

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WIFEALF 12/17/2012 1:39AM

    great blog as always!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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BEAUTY_WITHIN 12/17/2012 1:36AM

    Congrats on your streak! And great attitude about picking yourself back up! You can do it! Thanks for the inspiration!

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JULIE700 12/17/2012 1:10AM

    Great blog. Thanks for the motivation!

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PCASEY7 12/17/2012 1:08AM

    Great blog! I also binged today at a Christmas potluck and like you will take tomorrow as 'back to normal'. These thinkgs happen and one of my mottos is ''progress not perfection'. Keep up the great work!

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MOMFAN 12/17/2012 12:57AM

    Thanks!!

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COMEONMA 12/16/2012 11:38PM

    great quotes, and mndset. thanks

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LETHANIA 12/16/2012 11:26PM

    Thank you for this!!! and thank my mutual spark friend for posting on your page as that is how I got here. I have totally fallen off a huge streak and I've been clawing my way back. I'm determined not to let the festive food get me down. I like the looking forward with hope and not backward with regret. I'll keep trying. Thanks for this blog.

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SAKS20111 12/16/2012 11:16PM

    im so proud of you! picking yourself up after one single misstep. And you didnt beat urself up and use food again to ease that pain of feeling like a failure. Then, gets off the wagon! Great job! Its not easy. I use food too as an emotional outlet. But now im learning to a new behavior. Its not easy, but, we can do it.

Keep up the great work!

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