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Failure is the opportunity to begin again....

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Saturday, December 15, 2012




"Failure is only the opportunity to begin again more intelligently." (Henry Ford)

On March first, I started streaking, doing my best to make each day as healthy as possible. At that time I weighed 286 lbs. I was living a very sedentary lifestyle and living on mostly junk food. Every day was full of pain; the physical pain of obesity from sore knees, hips, feet and everything else...along with the emotional pain of being embarrassed by how I looked and by my own lack of control over food. When I finally just got so sick of myself that I couldn't stand it anymore, I decided to make a change. I just wanted to try to do as much as I could to reclaim my health and self esteem. So I decided to start streaking. My goal was to just make each day as healthy as I possibly could.



When I started my streak, I had no idea how many days in a row I would be able to go. I thought for sure I would have to start over...and over...and over. But a funny thing happened. I found that with each successful day I had, I gained strength and determination to just keep going to the next day, and the next. I would wake up every morning feeling proud of myself for the hard work I'd done the day before. Each workout made me feel strong and confident that I could keep going, that I could do more. Each time I ate a healthy meal, it felt like my body was thanking me for treating it with respect. As the days turned into weeks, I started building up my workout time, from 15 minutes a day to 45...to 60...to more.

I was losing weight and inches, but more importantly, I was gaining LIFE. I've said this before but I'll say it again...as my body got smaller, my life got bigger! I stopped thinking of this as a streak, and started thinking of it as a lifestyle. I became a completely different person...not just thinner, but happier, more confident, more optimistic, and healthier. I was thinking that it would be possible for me to make my streak last for an entire year!




Unfortunately, my streak ended today. I let stress and money worries get to me, and I binged...a HUGE binge! Afterwards, I felt so remorseful and sick. The weight of that disgusting junk food in my stomach made me feel physically ill. It amazes me that I used to binge like that all the time! How did I ever live that way? It does not feel good to gorge yourself on food.



So my streak has ended...but a new one is starting. Am I disappointed that my streak has ended? Yes, I am. But I'm not beating myself up about it. It was a mistake...and I have learned from it. I've learned that I do not EVER want to go back to the old me. I know what I want...I want to be healthy, fit, and trim. And I know what I need to do in order to make that happen, so I am getting right back to work. I have a light, healthy dinner planned. I am not going to starve myself to make up for that binge. I'm just getting myself back on track, and looking ahead.

I am never going to give up. This was just a setback, not the end of the road.


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CATNCAG 8/13/2013 3:03PM

    Way to go Pixie! That's my motto for obtaining the new me: I WILL NEVER EVER QUIT NO MATTER WHAT!!! Good for u - I'm very proud of u! U go girl! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SUPERSYLPH 7/12/2013 11:19AM

    emoticon I agree! No good comes from beating yourself up!

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CTMOM2KIDS 12/28/2012 9:17AM

    I am so very proud of you for know that there's no shame in falling, but that glory comes from rising after we fall!!

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MARIFLOWER 12/26/2012 6:38PM

  Absolutely awesome!
tomrrow is so much better when we are thankful for each day regardless!


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LETHANIA 12/26/2012 3:17PM

    I needed that!! emoticon

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EBURGITE 12/26/2012 11:52AM

    thanks for sharing the challenges. emoticon

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NERDLETTE 12/26/2012 9:50AM

    You rock!! I needed to hear this today!

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IMEMINE1 12/24/2012 5:57PM

    emoticon Love your blog.

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CATHOLICCORGI 12/24/2012 4:37PM

    Thank you for saying just what I needed to hear today! I began a new Streak today. There IS joy in the journey!

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AMANDEES76 12/21/2012 3:18PM

    If you have only had one bad day since March 1st I would say that your streak is still going but good for you for not letting that one binge take over on your journey. Sometimes we just need that little bit of a slip to remind us why we started down this path in the first place. Knowing that you know longer get the satisfaction out of binging you won't want to take that route again in the next bout of stress that comes your way.

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YAFENELRA 12/21/2012 8:47AM

    You are still doing great, Pixie. One binge will not be your downfall. You picked yourself up and that told me what I already knew~~~~you are one in a million.

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DURANGOREDDOG 12/21/2012 4:07AM

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GALINAZ 12/20/2012 12:13PM

    I know the feeling too of have a streak broken. I was logging every day and then through carelessness broke that streak. I was so angry! Silly, I know, but that was my honest feeling. I think I went through the stages of grief (shock, denial, anger, depression) and finally ...acceptance. I am human. I make mistakes. It's getting back up and starting again and realizing a streak is not a challenge to perfection but a challenge to persistence.

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DIANECOOKE 12/20/2012 10:00AM

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ROXIGIRL 12/20/2012 7:30AM

    One bad day in your journey would not make your journey bad one. Its ok to make mistakes. Its what we from time to time. As long we learned our lesson.

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IMEMINE1 12/20/2012 5:08AM

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MSBEKANATOR 12/20/2012 2:19AM

    Words of wisdom I needed to hear today! Thanks!!!!

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ELLIE381 12/19/2012 8:59PM

    WooHoo! Pixie. Great right back at it. You are doing wonderful job!! emoticon

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CAROLIAN 12/19/2012 5:18PM

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KITTYPNC 12/19/2012 11:50AM

  Good words of advice. emoticon

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MISSCUS 12/19/2012 8:24AM

    Be strong, Live strong. It's a good life. Especially when you feel good.


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PRAIRIE_MUM 12/19/2012 8:22AM

    I am sending big huge hugs to you! No single one of us is perfect and I believe that sometimes we have to take a good hard look back at where we came from. Your binge is a reminder of those old habits that don't work for you anymore. You know what success feels like. Now the lesson here is to remember that post-binge feeling next time you're tempted to go down that road again.

You are honest, inspiring and wonderful!

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WILSONWR 12/19/2012 7:28AM

    Words of wisdom. I am just having to restart a long streak myself...

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BELDONDOG1 12/18/2012 9:46PM

    I have been needing some motivation--thanks to your blog, I think you have just given me some!!

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RASIRE 12/18/2012 4:51PM

  Thanks for sharing your journey and inspiration!

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BANDMOM2012 12/18/2012 12:25PM

    Always smart to keep looking to the future!

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FIRECOM 12/18/2012 11:49AM

    BULLSEYE!!! I am a devotee of using motivational phrases and images and you have hit it out of the park.

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BEATLETOT 12/18/2012 10:57AM

    You are an inspiration, both in action and attitude.

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REGSHAR 12/18/2012 10:09AM

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LIFETIMER54 12/18/2012 6:58AM

  Your truly an inspiration.... emoticon emoticon

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SLFGOLF 12/18/2012 1:03AM

    Thanks for sharing. I find I learn more about myself in how I handle challenges, than how I handle the good times.

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JENNIK2 12/18/2012 12:15AM

    Great blog! emoticon

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MARYHENNIG 12/17/2012 11:59PM

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ANGIEMEL 12/17/2012 10:56PM

    ... I just happened upon your post. Hm. If you're not giving up, I won't either.

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HEALTHYWANNABE 12/17/2012 10:28PM

    Beautifully said. I feel like I beat myself up over my failures far more than I ever celebrate my successes. I will try to take away a little message from this to be kinder to myself. Thanks for the post.

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KATRINAKRAUT 12/17/2012 10:14PM

    You said it. "It does not feel good to gorge yourself on food". End of story. Time to write the next chapter. The rest of the story has been great so I know you will want to finish the tale. yeah!

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FUSCHIA6 12/17/2012 9:46PM

    I love it! Thanks so much.

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SPEEDY143 12/17/2012 9:12PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon on getting right back at it.... YOU are a winner in my eyes emoticon

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LJOYCE55 12/17/2012 9:04PM

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POWER2XCEL 12/17/2012 8:43PM

  Thanks for sharing

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JANETTEB553 12/17/2012 6:40PM

    emoticon so true

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OVHENDERSON 12/17/2012 6:13PM

    You've got the right (winning) attitude! Keep looking forward. "Never look back unless you're planning on going that way." -H.D. Thoreau emoticon

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AJB121299 12/17/2012 5:55PM

    great job

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MSROZZIE 12/17/2012 5:01PM

    Excellent blog! emoticon emoticon
It's OK to have a setback, but don't let it get you down. Remember, YOU are worth the effort. Stay focused on your goals! Keep Sparking!! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GRAMPIAN 12/17/2012 4:07PM

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PENOWOK 12/17/2012 4:00PM

    Good for you, Pixie!! Back on it!! One day is not the end of the world!

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FIT4MEIN2013 12/17/2012 3:47PM

    We only fail when we stop trying. You, WE, can do this!

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NEWTINK 12/17/2012 3:31PM

    I am sorry that stress happened to you but it happens to us all ... you have a great attitude and you will get back on the wagon and move forward ... emoticon

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JOSEY98 12/17/2012 3:16PM

    Great blog! What a great attitude as well. One faulty step does not have to push us into failure! emoticon emoticon

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