I have less than 5 weeks to go and.. last night my grandma died at 4:45pm. hard to believe she's gone and happy that she's not in pain no more.

My sadness is very overwhelming can't seem to stop crying at times and at times i feel numb like I do now. The baby is definately reminding me she's there and giving me lots of braxton hicks contractions tonight.. or so I hope there the fake ones. Just trying to relax... I know it'll get easier with time.. but dealing with this being pregnant almost think it's making it worst.