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Discouraged--I need some help friends

Friday, December 14, 2012

I have to admit something very embarassing that happened this morning. I'm sure it was just a PMS fit or something, but I put on a pair of jeans this morning that have always fit me just fine. Excitedly, I pulled them on thinking, "Yeah, with all these crazy workouts I have been committed to for the last few weeks, these ought to be falling off soon." What I found was that I had to strain to pull them over my hips and buttoning them was a chore. I flipped out. My eyes immediately filled with tears, and I just sobbed. My hubby asked me what was wrong, and I told him that I'm so tired of being fat! Despite my efforts, my struggles, everything I have done, I keep on this constant variable of 5 pounds between my max weight of 220, and 215. I cannot leave this area no matter what I do. I have been doing this since MAY! 7 months, and NOTHING to show on the outside. I know I have had other victories, but I'm furious that I can't lose this weight. I even find myself becoming so let down when I see other people on spark that have lost 20-40 pounds in that amount of time, and I have lost nothing, but maybe a measly 5 pounds that I usually just gain back. I'm stuck. And, I'm completely depressed about it.

In January 2010, I made a commitment to lose weight. And lose weight I did. From January to April 2010, I lost 32 pounds. The ONLY thing I was doing back then was going to the gym and it was simply to impress my husband when we were first dating. And I didn't even work out as hard as I have this year, and I was smoking and eating unhealthy crap! So this is the way I see it today:

2010-- for four months eat junk food, smoke like a train, workout about 3 times a week=lose 32 pounds
2012--for SEVEN months, eat healthy 95% of the time, haven't smoked in nearly a year, workout at least 5 times a week=+-5 pounds. 215-220 forever.

I don't know what else I can do. I'm taking better care of myself now than I ever have. Now that I value my body instead of trash it, it almost seems too late. Is this my punishment? Is it my punishment to be eternally overweight because I spent about 4 years abusing my body with anorexic/bulimic actions? Is it my punishment to stay fat because I smoked like a train for 7 years? Is it my punishment to remain like this because I didn't put goodness into my body and treat it well? But, I lost 32 pounds in 2010....so why now? Why won't the weight come off? What is left to do? I eat right, get cardio/ST, my sleep IS slowly improving. I'm so discouraged friends. emoticon
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    Oh, I can feel and relate to your frustration on this one!!! I wish I had all the answers, but as you can see, I am in a very similar boat. Here are a couple things I can think of that might help you evaluate what is going on in your particular situation.
    1. Are you drinking any of your calories? This can be a particularly sneaky way that those extra calories creep in when we
    don't want them too. I try to drink mostly water, crystal light and diet pop only on occasion. It took time to get here, since I used to drink Mountain Dew and Pepsi pretty regularly, but it has helped.
    An old weight watchers coach I had once said to always chew your calories--never swallow them whole.

    2. Have you been able to change/vary your exercise routine at all? I know it can help to work different muscles instead of always riding the 'hampster wheel'.

    3. Do you use the food tracker to measure your fiber, protein, carbs and fat? It can be a pain in the butt, but it is totally worth it. I find sometimes I think I am eating ok, but it turns out it is too many carbs and not enough protein and fiber.

    4. Are you eating late at night? I know this can be controversial for some people, but I really believe that stopping eating two to three hours before bedtime, except for no-calorie drinks really does make a difference. I also try to eat larger meals at breakfast and lunch and less at dinner.

    I hope this helps. I feel your tears and frustration and can relate with the pants situation more times than you can imagine--I usually blame it on the dryer shrinking my clothes, but that is not necessarily the case.

    Please hang in there and whatever you do, do not give up on yourself!!!!!

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    1525 days ago
  • _LINDA
    So sorry you have hit a plateau :(( You are doing good to exercise regularly and eat healthy most of the time.. Where things go wrong is inaccurate tracking or not staying in the calorie range given your amount of cardio per week. Have you set the Fitness tracker to reflect how much cardio you do in a week? Its important to be accurate so you know the calorie range you should be staying in. As someone pointed out, if you are going too low, your body will rebel and hang onto every little calorie you give it. Do you eat breakfast? Its the most important meal of the day and should never be skipped. The idea of eating several small 300 cal meals throughout the day is a good one -keeps your blood sugar level stable and this helps keep the metabolism running. Low carb diets are very effective, but its not healthy to go high fat and have no fruits or veggies. Talk about cholesterol boosting! You don't want to trade one set of problems for nother! Hang in and take a good look at all you are doing. You can solve this and get going again!
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    1528 days ago
  • KATIEG999
    This is so hard! I am kind of there myself - cannot seem to make forward progress despite my best efforts - but I know for myself if I keep trying that I will figure out that path towards progress, and I know the same for you.

    But for now, I am so sorry for this pain and discouragement.

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    1528 days ago
    I'm sorry you are so frustrated. This isn't an easy journey. Have you tried Spark Coach? Maybe they would be able to help you out a little. It seems like you do a lot of exercising - are you eating enough? A friend of mine, POOKASLUAGH, went through the same thing. Send her a message. She's very encouraging.

    Whatever you do, please don't give up. It's not worth it. As hard as it is, continue to eat healthy, exercise, and drink your water. Eventually, your body will reward you. Hang in there. emoticon

    1529 days ago
    emoticon I have totally been where you were. Doing the 5lb polka and never getting anywhere. Unfortunatly now I see myself right back where I began after I did end up losing a bunch of weight but it was due to personal junk and therefor not taking care of myself at all.

    All I can say is that I firmly believe that our bodies are happier and thank us for taking care of them even if it drives us crazy that they hang onto a few extra pounds.

    emoticon emoticon Great job on kicking the smoking habit! That is no easy feat!!

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    1529 days ago
    I have been where you are. When things are not working try something different. This is what I did.

    I have been struggling with my weight for 30 years. It turns out I developed metabolic syndrome. I'm not a medical professional, so do your own research, but here is what works for me.

    Your body has two ways to burn fuel. They are very different and don't happen at the same time. One is to burn carbs as fuel and the other is to burn fat. Your body won't burn fat as long as you have any carbs available and your body can store almost 3 days worth of carbs.

    I recommend "Wheat Belly" a great book, and Gary Taubs "Why we get fat and what you can do about it".

    Since your goal is to burn fat, and your body is not responding you might try eliminating carbs. I know it sounds weird, but it works. The cravings are gone for me and I am losing weight and keeping my muscle mass.

    Simply you need a certain amount of protein a day, say 70 grams. Any more and it turns to carbs. You make up the difference--what you need in calories with high fat low carb foods, like cheese, bacon, eggs, cream, sour cream, mayo, nuts, coconut oil (nice in hot drinks)...

    It is like the Atkins starting diet, like Paleo only no carb. It is called HFLC (high fat low carb). I think you can view my nutrition chart and see what I eat.

    I failed at Medifast (lost weight and muscle and gained it back), I failed with a 90 day juice fast, lost and gained it back, and my carb cravings were crazy and my blood sugar dropped after a few hours and I was starving for more carbs.

    I too believed I was doomed to an early death, and a lifetime of being overweight and in pain.

    I was at my wits end when I discovered that this might be what I needed to get my life back, so I tried it. It seems crazy to eat so much fat, and lose weight, but it works (for me and many others).

    I keep my carbs very low (20 grams or less a day), I eat just what I need in protein and the rest is fat. (good fat) not vegetable oils.

    If you are interested I can give you more links, I totally understand your pain.

    Once your body runs out of carbs for fuel it will switch to burning fat for fuel. You can test this with strips, but that isn't necessary.

    It takes 3 days to switch and takes a few weeks to feel better. But if you stick with it you will see results. I think some people just have a broken metabolism and have trouble switching back and forth from burning fat and carbs. My blood type is O, and I need more meat. Everyone is different.

    It is not too late, look into some different methods and if it sounds good to you try it out. The only warning I will give is you have to be really committed, one slip up with carbs and it sets you back 3 days.

    Take a deep breath and look for what your unique body needs and you will succeed.

    I so wish I had had this information 30 years ago.
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    1529 days ago
    Don't get too down on yourself, you have definitely changed your life for the better. It is awesome that you have stopped smoking and are eating healthy foods and working out. You are doing all the right things don't get discouraged or quit.
    Maybe you need to change it up a little. Your body gets used to exercise- you need to do different things to get over this plateau- vary the intensity. You might try walking 5 minutes, running for 30 seconds and repeat this five times, Tabatas... checkout Spark People videos and try something new.
    Believe it or not, you might not be eating enough or you might not be eating often enough. Don't slow your metabolism or put your body into starvation mode. Drink more water! You could try to eat something every 3-4 hours and see if that helps. The are a lot of Plateau buster articles on Spark People- they'd probably be a big help.
    Above all- keep on keeping on- we are all in this together! emoticon emoticon
    1529 days ago
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