Thursday, December 13, 2012
I was thinking the other day, as I often do while sweating through my morning workout on the treadclimber, about this fitness/health/weight loss journey that I'm on. On that particular day I was thinking about the 10 lb weight loss markers that I'm using to measure my success, and I realized that every time I get close to one of those markers I tend to spend a few weeks bouncing up and down a few pounds before finally succeeding.
I started wondering why that happens. After all, the rest of the time I lose a fairly consistent 3/4 to 1 1/4 lb every week. But every 10 weeks, I yo-yo. I realized, thinking back on the past few months, that as soon as I get close to that 10 pound marker, it's almost like my brain gets taken over by a bad-for-me-food-zombie. It's like my brain so strongly associates ME with being FAT, that the bad-for-me-food-zombie easily takes control and up the scale goes! And then it's a huge struggle to get back on track and get the scale moving the right direction again.
And THEN I started thinking what kind of sick freak am I that my brain can't even think of me being me, except as me being FAT!!
Don't worry though, I didn't let that thought take hold for more than a minute or two. I sweated it out as I continued my workout. I quickly realized that it didn't really matter if the bad-for-me-food-zombie did manage to take over every now and then. What mattered is the fact that IT HAS NOT WON!! Not even once! Every single time it's taken control, I've taken control back.
And you know what? That's worth celebrating!!
I think I'll have a banana....