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Frustrated and angry

Thursday, December 13, 2012

I was in a wonderful mood up until about 10 minutes ago.... I don't know where it came from but out of the blue I was frustrated and the point of tears... My childhood popped into my head and all the emotions started going through my head... all the pain and anger and then my weight come along right behind it.... I looked in the mirror and realized just how much I hate my body... but yet I can't stop eating... Im afraid for my health.... and for a 28 yr old... im in bad shape... health wise im fine but I hurt soo bad after work.. Im a cashier in a grocery store... I can't climb stairs without running out of breath.... i can't do a lot of things.... I am just so sick of it....I have a wonderful man that truly loves me but yet I use me weight as an excuse for lots of things... I should be a better person than this... I just don't know what to do or where to turn... no one seems to understand me....
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    You are absolutely right........ I just had a moment.... I now wish I never posted this but I had to get my feelings out,.... and as i am typing this i am fixing to get on my treadmill...even if it is only like 10 minutes.... like both of you have said...start small...and thats exactly what im going to do.... THANK YOU FOR YOUR KIND AND ENCOURAGING WORDS!! :)
    1770 days ago
    Unfortunately this is par for the course for so many of us on here. We've all (or most of us) had the same thoughts and feelings about ourselves that you're expressing here. I know it doesn't make you feel better about yourself to hear that, but for a lot of us it has helped to know that we're not the only one that has felt this way. The upside is, if you continue on this journey, and are true to yourself, it WILL get better. Much, much better!
    I started out on here 6 months ago, and though I've stumbled and fell a ton along the way, I have managed to lose 35 pounds and am now able to climb my stair at home (18 steps) at almost a running climb and still not be winded when reaching the top. It does take a lot of hard work, and there will be times you won't want to continue, or won't notice any changes (for me that happened for 2 months straight where the scale didn't move, and the measuring tape didn't show any difference in size) but you're doing something wonderful for yourself and you deserve to enjoy being in the skin you are in.
    Take it slow, don't overwhelm yourself by making huge changes to start off. Like Juneau said, start small. 10 minute commitments are a great way to start, and very doable. Even jogging in place while watching tv will increase your stamina enough that before you know it you'll be able to do things you never thought possible.
    1770 days ago
    Ty.... I know we can do this too.... I just end up giving up....
    1770 days ago
  • JUNEAU2010
    Right there with you! Words for both of us: start small. First off, if you can, see your doctor and make sure you can exercise safely. When you have that green light, walk on level ground for 10 minutes every day (work up to it if you have to - my back starts hurting, so I have to start with less and add time as it gets less painful). Gradually add more of a challenge, not just in terms of time, but walking up and down a very few stairs until you can do that flight of stairs without losing your breath.

    YOU can do this! I can do this! WE can do it together!
    1770 days ago
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