Thursday, December 13, 2012
Yeah, so I have been busy and haven't even been logging in. I usually log in even if I'm not posting, but nope, not this time. And go figure I'm up like 10 lbs.
But you know what? I'm not freaking out. Am I disappointed? Yes. Am I going to beat myself up? Nope.
I have been busy taking care of myself in other ways. I've been working on internal/spiritual things I guess you could say. I've been meditating daily (for those of you that think meditation is strange, it's really the same thing as prayer basically). The quiet "me" time where I focus positively and optimistically on things has been making me so much happier and more relaxed, etc. It's great. I'm doing my best in stressful situations and then letting it go, realizing there's only so much I can do. I don't need to make myself sick stressing about what other people chose to do or not do. Everything will work out.
Anyway, so along with that, of course, it's the holidays! I'm actually pretty excited - it helps having a 3 year old :) I decided to make gifts for people this year. I made some things (scarves and jewelry) last year, and this year I'm making some other things (on the off chance someone I know reads this anytime soon, I'll wait until after christmas to post what I made;) Thank you Pinterest!) So I've been taking a lot of time working on that. And now my focus is cleaning! We are having people over for Christmas Eve (in-laws mainly) And I decided I better start "deep" cleaning every room and then the day before I'll hopefully just have to do some dusting and vaccuuming and be done with it. It feels good accomplishing these things too. So, I have all the gifts made and wrapped. Just need to do 1 or 2 more simple things. Master bath and bedroom deep cleaned over the last two days during naptime, etc.
I have been staying fairly active, trying to get on the treadmill to at least walk on days when I'm not doing a bunch of cleaning or something. The main problem right now is the cooking. I have been cooking way too good of food (not as focused on diet friendly recipes - darn heavy warm comfort food!) and eating too much of it. That comes with this time of year for me especially. I am now picking recipes out of my healthy cookbooks again, so that's something. BUT I really need to work on the snacking - the grabbing a cookie or two here and there, grabbing a swig or two of eggnog, etc (at least I mix it with skim milk to make it not as rich! LOL) I am home all day watching kids, remember - lots of food available at all times. eek. :)
I'm not planning on any major gluttony, but realistically I know any plans to really watch what I eat are out the window until after the first of the year. I am choosing other priorities right now and I'm aware of it. What's two more weeks? I'm going to keep trying to make an effort for control every day, but I've got too much going on with company coming, cleaning, finishing presents, etc. I need to take this focus off my plate so I can get through the holidays and then back to it! That's what feels right to me right now.
I'm sad I haven't been keeping up with everyone over the last 2 months though - I have NO clue what's going on with anyone! But...I have been making other positive changes in my life while I've been absent, and those changes of more happiness and inner peace, etc can only help me out when I get back to it in January.
I really hope everyone has been doing well!! I don't expect any special effort, but if you want to put a brief update on what is going on with you in the comments or on my wall, I'd LOVE it! As I'm sure you all know, if you miss more than a couple days it's pointless to try to go back through the feeds, I'd go insane trying to go through all that LOL.
Other than time being an issue keeping me away from here, and focusing on other things, I always tend to feel like if I'm not doing amazing I shouldn't come on here and post, like nobody wants to hear that! But that's my own issue that I tend to think that. I think everyone can relate to what's going on right now and I miss you guys so I wanted to post :) I'm NEVER giving up. Yes I'm disappointed - if I'd kept going like I was at the beginning of last year I'd be at goal by now. Yes I'm disappointed that I keep gaining weight back. But I'm also choosing to remember that right now I am 27 lbs lighter than this time last year. (maybe a little more). That's GREAT! That's an average of 2.25 lbs a month (even though I've had at least 6 months where there was no progress LOL). I'm moving in the right direction. Life happens. We can't predict and force exactly HOW things are going to happen all the time, but I'm working towards my goals and making progress.
I will be popping in on here a bit more, but not really dedicated until after new year's. The next few weeks will fly by, I know it! And I've got a lot to do! (I'm actually hosting 4 different events, but Christmas Eve is the big one - ugh) So...I hope all of you have a fabulous holiday season!!!! Please don't forget about me!! :)
Sending happy, healthy, sane, loving, warm, calm thoughts to all of you (you CAN survive your families! LOL)
So how is everyone??