Wednesday, December 12, 2012
I am extremely nervous to the point where my heart is racing already. I have talked with my PCP , a nutritionist, a shrink, attended support meetings , blood work, EKG, chest xray, along with many other tests. Tomorrow I meet the surgeon for the first time to see what he thinks about doing the DS surgery on me. I have read so much and still have no idea what to expect. I feel as if i am going to get my heart broken tomorrow because he does not think I am a good candidate for surgery. I honestly have no idea how I will handle that. I have been heavy all of my life and with my knee and foot injury it is nearly impossible for me to work out enough to lose weight. After so many failed diets and just wanting to give up. I really have no idea what I am going to do if tomorrow he tells me no. I have tears in my eyes just thinking about it.