Been getting a little cheerier these last few days. I went to a really great Christmas concert featuring a few of our clients from the shop. It was really good and managed to lift my spirits. Also my Mom and I sponsored a few families for
Christmas this year, and last night we spent shopping for those families and it was a lot of fun. I think this is going to be a new tradition for me. It seemed to mean so much more buying for children that I know aren't getting truckloads of stuff already.
I saw this online today, and I just have to share, makes me chuckle, and think, so true, so true!
Lately I've been really searching myself to try and find who I really am, and how I fit into this big, wide world. I came accross this, and it seems to fit right where I am now.
All my soul searching has lead to an inner peace that seems to spring forth even in hard times. I've had to test this recently, since I found out yesterday that Tim is going to loose another job. I can't even count how many jobs that is in the last 5 years. It's been so many, that it doesn't even phase me anymore. This time it's for really complicated reasons, stemming from him telling the truth, so I am not upset. It is what it is, there is nothing we could do about it. But I have to admit my faith has been tested, and tested again. But, all in all, I choose love, peace, freedom from stress and worry and guilt and fear. I beleive that as long as I am alive, everything will work out the way it is supposed to. It may not be what I want, or expect, but it will be what God has planned, and ultimately what I need. It's hard to look at some of our struggles these last years, and admit that it was all a learning leasson that we needed to go through, but it is true. Every trial we have had has made us stronger, wiser and more in love with eachother. So, I say, bring it on. I'm not going to whine and cry and say "why us, why now, why????" I am going to say, OK, we'll get through this, like we got through the last trial, and God will show us what it is all about when we are ready and have the ears to hear.
On a cool note, I found out that the local pool has year round, daily lap swim. I bought two new swimsuits and plan on starting lap swim very soon. I can't wait! I was a lifegaurd and swimming instructor in High School and ever since then I have LOVED swimming. It is my favorite way to exercise, so hopefully I'll be at it really soon.
If I can consistently put into practice all the great things I've learned from SP I'll really be on a roll!!! I'm excited about the new year and think that 2013 should be wonderful. Have a lovely Christmastime. Hope the season is bringing great things your way.