Wednesday, December 12, 2012
I have always been an introvert, at least until you get to know me. I am particularly quiet in new situations. So substitute teaching is a real challenge for my very shy personality.
Last night I got a call to sub today. I have been turning down most of the sub opportunities this Fall and particularly these last few weeks, since I am down to only a few work days at my old job. But last night the automated sub system informed me I had been requested for this job. Wow! What a nice compliment! I subbed for this teacher a week ago, but just for the afternoon. That was my second time subbing for her. But today was not only my first time to sub ALL day, but it was my third time subbing for this same teacher! She is a reading interventionist and spends her day working with small groups (3-5 kids) in 30-minute increments on their reading skills. I have found I really like working with small groups. There are fewer behavior problems and I actually learn the kid's names!
I never wanted to pursue a teaching job or even sub when I was fat, fearing the ridicule of the students because of my obesity. When I lost weight, teaching was just one of many wonderful parts of the normal world I rediscovered, having completely forgotten my dream to teach all those years I was fat.
I have subbed several times this semester and hope to continue when I have more free time after retirement. I had forgotten, however, that as a teacher, I am expected to be in charge. I have to step up, speak loudly, and LEAD! Yikes!! Sure they are just kids, but it's still a daunting task for an introvert like me. I have found that I am a little more assertive and WAY more confident in myself since losing weight and that has helped a lot in my substitute teaching experiences. And each time it does get a little easier. Perhaps someday soon I will no longer have to just pretend that I am a leader and I will actually become one...at least in the classroom if not in the other areas of my life.