Wednesday, December 12, 2012
YAY Day 13!! I am so happy...I feel like it is getting easier and easier. I am to the point where I don't even think about it anymore! I was missing my beer with dinner (not the being drunk part) but I have grown to like iced tea :). I'm feeling great, most of the withdraw junk is gone. My anxiety disorder stuff as really calmed down and my headaches and nausea are mostly gone. I did have a nightmare, which I read was a common symptom. It could have just been random but I rarely have nightmares. I feel freaking amazing, I do NOT want to ever go back to that life again.
OK time for an ironic rant. My friends are driving me INSANE with their negative outlook on EVERYTHING! I told a (sober) friend of mine last night that I was on day 12 of being sober and she said "Congrats..I wish I had something to be proud of". Really? You wish that you were a recovering alcoholic? Most of my friends will find the bad in every situation and it is very frustrating. You guys probably know, I am a self help junkie. Most self help books say the same things, I am aware. One of the things they all say is to learn to look at the positive and quit dwelling on the negative. Those books have perfected my art of positive thinking. I use to be negative like them until one day my boss said "do you ever say anything that isn't a complaint". That woke me up. And my life has been so much better once I stopped feeling sorry for myself. I guess they want sympathy, we all do some times, but if you are asking for it every single time you speak, you won't get it. I work very hard to see the positive in their negative statements, and I point it out, and they say "leave it to you to find the good!" but man it gets exhausting after a while. So I had to rant. And I am better now, thank you lol!
Ok next, coffee. Coffee, you are as bad as booze some times! I am addicted to the stuff. I don't feel the caffeine buzz but I cant stop drinking it! Its soo yummy and comforting. I don't drink sugar in it and I only use a dash of milk. However, I think it is dehydrating the crap out of me. I drink it instead of water all day :/. I did an experiment and yesterday, I only had 2 cups and 80 oz of water. My weight was down a lb this morning lol. That may seem like nothing but my weight doesn't fluctuate hardly ever. Is it the caffeine that dehydrates? Can I drink decaf all day?! Hey, at least it isn't beer!