Tuesday, December 11, 2012
He may be a little crazy, but he never quits. He just keeps going. It's an admirable quality, the ability to outlast everyone and everything else. I don't necessarily think I have to outlast everyone, but it would be nice to go further than the people who give up. It would be nice to keep going to the point in the future when I finally reach my ideal weight, in spite of any obstacles or setbacks.
The future is still up to me. It's only day four, so it's easy to be an optimist. Things have been going well and other than an occasional craving, it really hasn't been that bad. The point inevitably hits, though, when I get tired of keeping track of everything I eat and going without the things I used to have without a second thought.
When I was going to school for graphic design I worked full time, went to school time, had a second, part-time job, and was also taking piano lessons. Sometimes at night I would cry and think "I can't do this for another two years." I would have a small pity party, then say one more thing: "but I can do this for one more day." I hope, when things become harder and when I feel like giving up, I can remember the wisdom I had back then. Maybe I can't do this for another year or two, but I can do this for one more day. I can!