In my head....
Tuesday, December 11, 2012
It must be all in my head...or so I've lead myself to believe for quite sometime now.
I laugh at myself when I stumble over my own feet and start falling towards the closest stationary object. I joke that I must be drunk when I slur my speech or mix my words (even though I haven't had a drop of alcohol). I think 'how stupid' that I sit or stand too long in one position that it causes tingles and numbness throughout my body. I think 'how lazy I must be' because I often times don't have the strength to do everyday activities but would fall asleep within minutes of sitting down...just plain exhausted. The severe vertigo that could put me down for weeks at a time, must be inner ear related. All these things I could find a reason as to why they were happening.
"Mommy, your scaring me!" Those are words that made me stop in my tracks. Maybe it's not all in my head and maybe it's not as simple as "I'm just a funny klutz".
A month and a half. That's how long I waited to see the Dr who was recommended to me by the scheduling nurse. Doctor entered room and was rushing, as most doctors do. "Hello! Whats the purpose of the visit?" I get my paper with my "must be in my head" symptoms and right away she says "I don't have time to look at that just give me the top 3 things." I found myself getting upset but strong. I tell her how long I've waited to see her. I tell her that she was recommended. I tell her that many of these symptoms have started many years ago (07/08) and its impossible to just say 3. I tell her that I deserve her time. I tell her it ISN'T just in my head because my son was scared...and truthfully...me too.
That got her attention. She heard the symptoms (there were more) and she immediately put in for an referral to a specialist. In the mean time I did a series of blood tests. During my followup appointment to go over blood test, my levels on everything was great except for B12. I'm deficient. I eat meat, so I ask myself, how is this possible? I go in for B12 shots every week (they kick my butt for days afterwards) but am hoping to bring my levels back up, assuming it 'takes'.
I've heard of B12 before but never really gave it a second thought. The damage it can cause when levels are low, especially for a great length of time, can and are extreme. The specialist I mentioned earlier....a neurologist. Currently, I am in the process of making an appointment to meet them and go through further testing.
ADVICE: If you have any of the above symptoms, talk with your doctor. If your family brings up a concern, then it's NOT in your head, talk with your doctor. Eat meat. Make sure your doctor listens. Learn about B12...it's important.
It's so easy to write it off as 'its all in my head'. Maybe it is but most of the time it's not. Or in my case, it may be...we'll see what the neurologist says. :) In the mean time, I will continue to laugh, act drunk (without alcohol) and love life...
SOME INFO: http://www.webmd.com/food-reci
(sorry so long)