Tuesday, December 11, 2012
This is something that I have been struggling with for a couple of months now. As most of you know I began this weightloss journey with my little sister. When we started it was the end of May, it was beautiful outside and their was a lot of motivation that got us to our workouts. We made working out our job and we were losing weight consistently although my sister would lose a bunch of weight and then gain half of it back and ride that roller coaster. I am sure she gained and lost close to 70 lbs. As of Thanksgiving, she was officially 39 lbs down. However, two weeks prior to that she was down 44 lbs. We both have a goal of being down 50 by year end.
I don't know what the exact problem is and because I don't know what it is, I don't know how to fix it. I don't know what to say or do to make the lightbulb go off in her head because I know her heart wants to lose weight and I know for certain, her health needs for her to lose that weight. I don't even enjoy my own successes because I see her struggling. Her eating is out of control and off schedule. Her and her husband eat late and eat a lot. Her workouts are little to none unless i work out with her. And when she works out alone, I know she is not pushing herself as hard as she is capable of going. Knowing she is only a handful of pounds from being 300 lbs again makes me sick. Not in an irritated way but in a this is my baby sister and I know she is hurting herself and there is nothing I can do about it kind of way. Derrell tells me that all I can do is be available and in the meantime I need to focus on my goals. I know she is an adault and that this is her issue, HOWEVER, I am the big sister and if I am capable of saving her from health issues, then I am going to do it. I just don't know how to break through a spirit that is already broken.