Tuesday, December 11, 2012
because I have been having menopausal (I thought) problems and have been feeling very drained and exhausted lately. I was expecting for her to tell me something comforting and deal with my medical issue. After examining me, blah, blah, blah, did an office procedure (which I saw stars from, I should have pulled her tongue out of her mouth), I digress, all she tells me is that I am suffering because I am fat, fat, fat, fat. Isn't that nice to hear? You are FAT, that is why you have this. You are FAT, that is why you have that. I quote: "You are so fat, you really should have a sleeve gastrectomy, that would save your life". First of all, I am not dead yet, and second of all, the only sleeve that I am going to have is long sleeves, short sleeves, or sleeveless. I came out of there feeling sick to my stomach, humiliated, etc. I told her I changed all of my eating habits and lost 4 pounds this week, just eating healthier and walking. I couldn't do too much exercise because of this bleeding problem.
Oh but no, 4 pounds isn't enough. You have to be a size 2, with no fat on your body, and have bariatric surgery to accomplish that. I am so sick of tired of people telling me that. Everyone I knew ( I say knew), that was overweight had bariatric surgery. They are all a size 2, showing themselves off, not eating anything anymore and they look at you like you are a blimp because you eat food. Oh they never eat anymore, and their confidence is way off the map that they won't even bother with an obese person anymore.
It really upsets me, but I am going to continue eating healthy and exercising, and eating real food in moderation. I am going to be healthy but I am going to do it my way, not the way society wants me to do it. We all have medical problems, and not all is caused by obesity, but I thank God everyday for what he has given me, and I am truly blessed, and in His time, I will reach my goal with His help.