Not Too Happy with Myself
Monday, December 10, 2012
I was doing well. I could jog a mile. I worked out twice a week. I ate healthier. I drank lots of water. I lost 50 pounds. I bought smaller clothes. I got compliments. Then, it all fell apart.
I haven't jogged in a while. I work out once a week, on a good week. I make poor food choices. I drink about half the amount of water I should. I've gained back about 10 pounds. My smaller clothes are a bit more snug. The compliments have stopped. I'm not happy about any of this.
Why? I've had a lot going on. Between the pregnancy, November birthdays, holiday festivities, and more. But that should NOT be an excuse. I want working out to be a priority. I don't want everything else to get in the way, but it does. I no longer have a workout partner, so I'm on my own. My wife isn't as supportive of my efforts as I wish she was. She sometimes gives me grief about going the gym because I'm busy and she wants or needs me for other things instead.
I know people with larger families and busier lives than me, yet they spend many hours a week running and working out. I just don't understand how it's possible. I don't think I will ever be at that level, and I'm not sure that I would want to. At least they're consistent. I think that's the key. As soon as I slack off for a week or two, it easily becomes a pattern. I feel like no one understands that. Hearing "we've got a lot going on, just come home tonight" more than a couple of times in a row really throws me off.
I don't mean to blame others, but when you're married and working two jobs to support a family, you really need support. I wish I could do it all by myself, but it just doesn't seem to happen that way.
So, what do I do now? Do I enjoy the holidays and get a fresh start in the new year? Or do I try to be good, get busy and eat the holiday goodies, then get disappointed that I'm still not getting anywhere?