Monday, December 10, 2012
Time to act as if, even though I am so not feeling it. But I am not going to get anywhere waiting to feel it, so here we go.
The good news is my time for interior work is increasing. I have struggled with this for a while (finding the time, investing the energy, etc). That is going well. The eating is still what I call octopus eating--because it seems like I have 8 arms for as much as I'm picking at food and putting it in my mouth. And still drinking a bit too much.
I am doing my PT exercises at least once daily, mostly twice a day. They are going variably for me. Physically they aren't too hard, but they do seem to set my negative voices going. And i'm up to 7 minutes on the elliptical (my PT gave me a minute increase every other day).
So here are the goals. Talk about getting back to basics, but that's OK:
drink 64 oz water a day
track every day
pep talk every morning to remind myself I am the driver here, no one else is. I'm not a victim, even though things have not been going my way.
plan out meals for the next 3 days and track ahead of time
PT exercises with elliptical every single day
remind myself every day, as often as I can, that the world is not served by my fear or shame. It is served by me acknowledging and sharing my beauty.
There we go. Keep it simple. And hold my head up and act as if I'm someone who doesn't graze on ginger bread cake with frosting when I DON'T EVEN LIKE GINGER FLAVORED ANYTHING!!. But that's the octopus crazies for you.
To a good week!!