Monday, December 10, 2012
This very day, I overheard one preschooler momma say to another, “thank you for the Mickey Mouse cake you made for our daughter’s birthday party! It was so nice, how did you make the icing so smooth?” As the momma's discussed the secret of icy smooth frosting, I began asking myself as I sat in the school hallway waiting for one of my children in that same class, "why don’t I have a stay-at-home business like her since I’m home with my kids? What can I do? This momma makes cakes, the other one is a photographer …what am I?" An awful sinking feeling erupted in my stomach and my eyes felt heavy and downcast. I'M SUCH A LOSER!
Then God reminded me within this very morning, that I have businesses that I’ve put on hold because of recent health struggles. I earned my B.S. in recreational therapy. I have been trained as a reflexololgy and body alignment practitioner. I earned my certification as a holistic health coach. But after having 3 babies in 4 years, I’m struggling to put it all together–my life, my home, my kids, my sleep habits, and in the midst of it all, my body is screaming at me! Fibroids! Cysts! Fatigue! So, here I am, comparing myself one moment, and in the next I’m “slathering myself with grace” as you call it.
The gifts and qualifications I have are still very much like a “lady in waiting”, just given the right God-appointed time and I will have the chance to continue serving others with those gifts. Until that time, I am resting, waiting and healing in Jesus’ name as He strengthens my body & spirit with His word; and I am committed to helpful food choices, gentle exercise and right living. Who am I to compare myself with others? In this I have sinned, for I am fearfully & wonderfully made.
Comparing ourselves to others can cause a stomach reflex, that sinking feeling, that brings us down a few notches in an instant. When that happens to you, what are your strategies for turning off the "noise"?
Let me hear it!