Monday, December 10, 2012
My weekend was neither a total loss nor success.
I was depressed most of the weekend.
I finally got back on the treadmill yesterday and managed not to hurt myself so this is good, and I am back down 1.5 pounds. I actually though I would weight More this morning than I did Friday because I was not food careful, but I also managed no major binges.
This week is full of time challenges so we will see how I handle them.
Tonight: Longwood Gardens (at least I will be walking A LOT) Get home late and try to wrap gifts for Tuesday, something I should have done instead of Moping Friday night.
Tuesday: Chanukah Dinner with my Jewish boyfriend and two other Friends. –kind of excited because I have never done Chanukah before!
Wednesday: Time in with BF. This is the only Alone time we will get all month.
Thursday: DANGER. My Mother arrives to spend the next several days doing Christmas crafts, baking cookies and treats etc. My Mother had mobility issues so being active WITH her is not going to happen. I just hope since I own my own treadmill, I can make myself leave her in front of the TV a couple times and go work out.
So Thursday: Boyfriend is meeting the Mother for the FIRST time and taking us out to dinner.
Friday: Mom taking Sister and I out to Dinner and a Movie.
SAT/SUN time with Mom doing sedentary things and trying not overdo it with the food in spite of her constant refrains of “You can’t diet All of the time” “It’s Christmas, enjoy” “You are NOT going to gain it all back in a Month so just chill out” “Well I am sorry but I rarely get to spend with you girls so I intend to enjoy myself and my treats while I can and I will be back to behaving myself Next week)
With her it is always next week. She is obese and has been on a diet for all of my life. I beg her to try Spark People, I try to rewrite her thinking about it, but in the end I cannot change her.
So aside from the enabling Mom, I also see WAY too many dinners out on the menu this week and almost no time for doing workouts. I swear to try to cram in fitness wherever I can. Maybe the slightly warmer trend will hold and I can get on of the shop guys to walk with me on some lunches.
WISH ME LUCK keeping this from spiraling way out of control.
UPDATE: Wanted to clarify something about my remarks on my Mom. I meant none of that as an insult, mostly as an illustration that the WAY she looks at health and diet is not, in actuality either healthy or working. It is a family problem and she passed it to her daughters and I WISH I could help her but she clings to the old cycle.