Sunday, December 09, 2012
I am fat, cripplingly fat, It has been a constant struggle my whole life.
Friday I finally turned the corner mentally and began anew. Three years ago, with a combination of food tracking and exercise I lost 100 pounds, and I got in a place where I was mentally prepared to start again.
36 hours into my new journey the best Mexican restaurant in town catered lunch for us. One of my coworkers, who knows I love their burritos, asked if I had one. I replied "No, I cant eat that anymore." His response was common "Oh come on, one burrito isn't going to be all that bad for you." I replied with "Would you tell an alcoholic that one drink isn't going to hurt them?"
I see little difference between food, alcohol, or tobacco addictions. They all slowly kill you, The major difference is the public at large has no respect for food addiction. They act as if I have some level of control over this.
When I do have control, it is in fleeting moments and spurts and I may not know how to accept someone's support, what I cannot have is people actively trying to break my will by thinking "Oh, its no big deal."