Sunday, December 09, 2012
I'm up 8 pounds since Thanksgiving. I'm absolutely mortified.
I am ravenous. I'm not gaining from parties and drinks and indulgence. I'm just eating like there's no tomorrow.
It started with a few small transgressions. A quick bite at the drive thru. Pizza the night I worked 11 hours and was too tired to come home and cook for my family. Those choices left me with high blood sugars and that's a dangerous cycle for a diabetic. I become hungrier with everything I eat. I feel driven to eat and make bad (really bad) choices that are filling...for the moment.
I know I have to shock myself out of this cycle but I am so tired, so hungry, so stressed at work. I want to just give up. I tried to get it together today but I failed miserably.
I need to eat clean tomorrow. That is the one thing I am going to ask of myself. Well, besides going to work and running errands. My fiancÚ and kids can get their own dinners and let me stay out of the kitchen.