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Minor Setback - Major Comeback!

Sunday, December 09, 2012

Wow, itís been a really LONG time since Iíve even thought about logging on to spark, reaching out to friends, blogging, much less tracking my food or even thinking about exercise. This year was one for transition, where I had to completely step out of my comfort zone and put all my faith and trust in the universe leading me in the right direction and life working out as it should. For someone who puts a lot of stake in having a set schedule with little to no variations, that was very hard!

Anyone who knows me knows that I worked at a job that I was very unhappy at. I felt trapped because I wanted to leave, but couldnít find a new gig that would allow me to still maintain my quality of life. But for many reasons I left the job in July and found myself unemployed with a mortgage, student loans and lots of bills that needed to be paid. I was so frantic because this was the first time since I was 16 years old that I didnít have a job. Iíve always been very resourceful and self sufficient and being in this new place was very scary. Scary because I had been trying to find another job for almost 2 years without much luck, and scary because when the bills are due, theyíre due. I wasnít in a financial position to sit around waiting long for employers to call me for a professional job since interviewing can take sooooo long. So I was desperate for whatever. I landed two part-time gigs. I ended up taking jobs that I was very overqualified for just to be able to have some income. Long story short, I was working two part-time jobs with crazy, exhausting hours. One job was 4:30a-3p and I would leave that and go to another 3:30p-11p. Just to wake up and do it all over again. My life for the past few months has been nothing but work, sleep for a few hours and work again. Very reminiscent of Groundhog Day. Due to this schedule I donít get to spend a lot of quality time with my partner, I havenít seen my friends in months and havenít seen my family in a spell either. This schedule is certainly lonely. With the amount of hours Iíve been working I havenít had time to take care of myself. I havenít been able to get a sufficient amount of respite, eat at home, exercise Ė no activities that are worthy of walking a healthy path have been present for some time. Needless to say I think Iíve packed on 30 lbs or so. Thirty to be safe, but itís an estimate because Iím too afraid to step on the scale and really see what the damage is. But I can tell in my thighs, my backside, my arms that Iíve packed on some weight. Even getting in my mini cooper with a passenger can be a struggle due to my expanding girth. A mini is fun to drive but itís no fun getting out of that thing huffing and puffing thatís for sure!

I was given myself too much of a pass. I can sometimes be my own worst enemy because I enable myself. I gave myself a pass to let all hell break lose because I really didnít know how else to deal with things during this time. Iím all about multi tasking but the issue at hand was working to survive and pay the bills. I told myself that I would worry about losing weight and getting healthy once I got another full-time gig and a decent salary. I am so happy and gracious to report that I will be starting a new job after the new year and now I can get back to getting right. I would like to keep one of my part-time jobs just until I can get my credit cards paid back down and get back on my feet. I also want to make sure I cut my expenses and save more money. Because trust and believe I will never be caught in a situation like I was this time around. I know financial independence is no where in my future, but it will at least be nice to know that should something come up I wonít be in the same predicament financially. But Iím worried about having two jobs. This job Iím starting on 1/2 is one that I absolutely need to be dedicated to. I wowed these folks in the interview and theyíre expecting to have excellent results Ė which is why they hired me. And thatís to be expected. I want to do well and embrace this job, learn from this job and excel at this job. It could be that being in the trenches these last few months looking for gainful employment has humbled me, but this is the first time that Iím ever really looking forward to starting a job. Usually I would feel entitled to my new position. Saying to myself ďyeah I worked hard, this is the next step, I deserve this.Ē. Wow, that attitude is gone for sure. I am so gracious and overwhelmed to have this new start. I honestly started crying when the employer called to tell me I had been selected. Answered prayers always come in unexpected ways thatís for sure.

So I need to get back to right. Moderation is key. Small steps lead to big change. This is a minor set back that has set me up for a major come back. Iím excited!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
NCHOPEFUL 1/31/2013 3:57PM

    I'm right there with you. Life is tough. But we are tougher. We can conquer and will win this battle!! Stay strong, girl!!

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DYA177 1/23/2013 10:59PM

    Girl, you rock. You are strong your will inspires me. Come on and BRING IT ON 2013!!!

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WANT_MYBODYBACK 12/30/2012 8:23PM

    That is awesome news and it couldn't have come to a more deserving individual! Your hard work will pay off and this is just the beginning! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ME_HERE_NOW 12/12/2012 5:19PM

    you are not alone girl, i have been slipping and sliding to the tune of about 45 lbs *YIKES!* i am trying to get it back on lockdown and trying to find new opportunities as well. i am glad you ship came in! i hope things calm down and you can get back to cooking at home, the JCC and have time for everything you want to accomplish ;) so glad to get an update, me love you long time!

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AZIMAT 12/12/2012 8:10AM

    Welcome back. I agree with Stephanie to start slowly. Set a goal that you can achieve, like exercising for x minutes a day for three days, and then achieve it. Then set another achievable goal. Success breeds success. We're all rooting for you!

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BLAIRJ1 12/11/2012 8:54PM

    Thanks for the update, my lovely friend. You are going to do great things xo

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SLASALLE 12/11/2012 4:52PM

    What an ordeal, my friend. But it looks as though you've come through the tunnel and are nearing the light ... you know what to do and how to do it. I like your attitude with the "minor setback, major comeback." Remember though, start slowly and don't burn yourself out!!

So great to see you back!


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SWEETZMIX 12/11/2012 4:49PM

    Hey boo! I am happy for you and the new job. Sometimes we need a reality check and you got yours. No where to go but up from here. Just remember the struggle. Working a full time and a part time is hard. I know because I did it and gained like 15lbs in 3 months. Give it a whirl and if you see it's not worth your health. Rock out the full time one and just cut back. Eventually you will pay those bills down.

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    You can do it! I've been working 60hrs on avg a week and know the feeling. Glad to have you back!!

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PLATINUM755 12/10/2012 3:40PM

    Where there's a will, there's a way...and you found a way! The power is in YOU! I'm so excited for you. emoticon

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MADEMCHE 12/10/2012 11:47AM

    Super proud of you Schen! Congratulations on the new job! I know how hard it is to focus on yourself when all you are doing is working to stay afloat. You are amazing and talentend and I am so very happy that you have found something that will allow you to take more time for yourself, AND recognizes how amazing and talented you are! Good luck in the Newy Year, and so happy to see your shining face on here again! Love and hugs.

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ROSGETSSERIOUS 12/10/2012 11:23AM

    I am so glad that things are working out for you. So exciting - I am sure you will wow them!!

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STLADEE 12/10/2012 10:00AM

    Again good to see you back, sorry to hear about the misgivings you have encountered. Life gets hard you adjust and it makes it even harder when you have to add a weightloss journey to it. You will do fine and get it together. Getting back to SP and blogging is always a good start.

Hope to see you more! Best of luck on the new job!

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SUPERDUPER26 12/10/2012 1:59AM

    Yay! I'm glad things are working on working out, and congrats on the huge mental turnaround. I think your title is perfect, both because it accurately represents your story, and because its the perfect attitude to have!
Thanks for sharing, and good luck! emoticon

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MAMADWARF 12/9/2012 10:14PM

    Im excited for you that things are going to settle down and you can come back and visit with me! (yea, im selfish like that!). I think that sounds like a very uncomfortable place to be so I am very happy for you...!

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HEALTHYASHLEY 12/9/2012 10:03PM

    Glad you are back! Wow, what a story. I think anyone would have been completely thrown for a loop as well. Congrats on the new job! Very exciting. I am starting again too and I know we both can have very good results! I am proud of you for looking at this so positively.

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