Saturday, December 08, 2012
Going back through the roughly 180 SparkPeople emails I have accumulated in my absence, I came across this from Coach Nancy: "The number of times you fall down is irrelevant. The number of times you have the courage to get back up is what matters."
That's kind of where I am right now. Back in early October I developed a case of pneumonia and had to slow down my exercise program since I just didn't have the energy to keep it up. I recovered enough to walk about 2/3 of what was to have been my 1st Half-Marathon. I even managed to run/walk what for me was a good 5K on October 26th and then travel to watch my son's band win our state 5A band competition. Things were looking up. Then things fell apart... a chronic condition that had been in remission for over 10 years reared it's ugly head... ulcerative colitis.
While I will not go into details, let me just say that your strength is sapped, you are constantly in danger of dehydration and can't travel far from a bathroom!
As my symptoms increased, my weight loss journey came to a screaching stop. I struggled to find things I could eat that would not trigger symptoms and fell off the proverbial wagon. For over 10 years, I had been symptom free and medication free. Once again, however, I'm back on maintenance medication. While the symptoms are stabilizing, my weight has gone back up... not horribly, but enough to make me disheartened.
I avoided SparkPeople. I posted only positive happy things on Facebook, never hinting at what I was really dealing with. I'm through with the avoidance! I'm ready to move forward.
Today I participated in my first 5K event in 6 weeks - not fast, but completed. I updated my SparkPage and logged meals for the 1st time in weeks.
Now, I won't guarantee I will not fall off the wagon again, but I will continue to get back up every time I do.