Saturday, December 08, 2012
Ok, things have been really hard lately. My husband of 23 years left me a few days before Halloween. He said that he did not love me anymore and he did not find me attractive anymore. Well that hurt a bunch. Three days later he was out the door living in an apartment he had set him self up in. I begged him to stay and work it out. I asked him if there was another woman and he said no. I was in total shock. I know things had not been good but I did not know it had gotten this bad.
A month later I know I must move on. I now know that a woman was involved and he is in love with her. I also know that I had not been happy and all my self worth was tied up in an unhappy marriage. I am trying to get thru day by day. I started swimming in August and now am doing it three days a week still. It is the one thing I do for myself that I will not compromise on. I deserve this time to get healthy. I am up to a half mile in the YMCA pool and I am pretty damn proud of that. I want to start biking soon too but with the holidays and all the emotional turmoil that I have been dealing with I am allowing myself to wait until January and then I am going to work on that part of me.
I have wonderful friends and family who have been so supportive. I do not know what I would do without them.
So here is to me and to a new me. Here is to a better me in 2013!!