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A new me in 2013

Saturday, December 08, 2012

Ok, things have been really hard lately. My husband of 23 years left me a few days before Halloween. He said that he did not love me anymore and he did not find me attractive anymore. Well that hurt a bunch. Three days later he was out the door living in an apartment he had set him self up in. I begged him to stay and work it out. I asked him if there was another woman and he said no. I was in total shock. I know things had not been good but I did not know it had gotten this bad.

A month later I know I must move on. I now know that a woman was involved and he is in love with her. I also know that I had not been happy and all my self worth was tied up in an unhappy marriage. I am trying to get thru day by day. I started swimming in August and now am doing it three days a week still. It is the one thing I do for myself that I will not compromise on. I deserve this time to get healthy. I am up to a half mile in the YMCA pool and I am pretty damn proud of that. I want to start biking soon too but with the holidays and all the emotional turmoil that I have been dealing with I am allowing myself to wait until January and then I am going to work on that part of me.

I have wonderful friends and family who have been so supportive. I do not know what I would do without them.

So here is to me and to a new me. Here is to a better me in 2013!!
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    I try to have a good attitude but believe me I still have a hard time. I cry most every day still but I know I had to muddle on no matter what. The busier I am the better off I will be. I am sorry to hear you are going thru the same things. They say it takes a year for every 4 years you are married, so we both go a journey to get thru yet. There is no choice but to move forward no matter how hard it seems. I have a daughter, so I just try to keep up my spirits for her the best I can. She sees my sadness and my tears sometimes but I try not to do that to her. Plus I want her to have a good relationship with her father, so I try to overlook alot of things. My wusband is living with his girlfriend now and believe me that is rough to think about too. No on realizes how hard this is until they go thru it. God Bless You.
    1859 days ago
    I saw your comment on my post on the Divorce Support team. Our stories are kind of similar. My husband announced on our 18th anniversary last June that he'd been unhappy for years and couldn't be married to me anymore. It came totally out of the blue to me. We'd been together since high school. We didn't have the perfect marriage of course, but we were always on the same page about being committed to marriage and divorce not being an option (or so I thought). You seem to have a great attitude. Eight months later I still wake up every single day and just can't believe what's happened.
    1859 days ago
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