Saturday, December 08, 2012
Not sure what the opposite is, and I'm not at the opposite of sparking my way along. But I would say my Spark motivation is and has been low for a while. I am still trying (with some success) to eat well everyday. The long time of not being able to exercise has taken its toll. I just haven't felt like tracking or being on SP while my motivation is a little lower. It's not terrible-- to quote one of my favorite songs by Girlyman, "I'm not on fire, not burned out, just somewhere different now".
I am hoping that in the next weeks I will be able to report that I am doing the following:
doing my daily lists of challenges and successes
eating in range
doing my PT exercises consistently
feeling a little more spark
I am highly motivated to do my PT exercises for my back and foot. They are kind of hard, kind of boring. I go back to the PT in 2 weeks. The good news is she released me to do the elliptical, so I am able to get my heart rate up a bit. Unfortunately, she released me for 5 minutes a day, increasing by one minute every other day. It's not a lot, but it is more than I've done in 7 weeks. My pain is also a lot better, so I am very grateful for that.
I've written about using this time to heal not only my body, but also my sense of who I am equaling what I do (ie, exercising and eating in range, etc). I have been doing more reflecting and writing. Can't say that I've made any new discoveries in this area, but keep on keeping on, right?
Life overall is really good. Thanksgiving was wonderful. I am really looking forward to a lot of fun stuff this month.
But the spark? It's in there, I know, and will get brighter. Sorry for my absence, though.