Saturday, December 08, 2012
I work with the public and for the most part I am well-liked. Hence, people feel inclined to give me what they think are little treats. My work space is tiny and isolated. In the course of one work day yesterday I was given more chocolate than one woman should have to turn down in a day. Dove chocolates, truffles and a cupcake. I have nowhere to put these out of reach so they sit there -- staring at me and calling my name.
I did okay on the truffles -- tasted a few (they were home made by a customer -- it would have been rude not to try them, right?) and put the rest in my purse. The Dove chocolate is a weekly gift from a customer who is very ill and makes such an effort and who loves to see me down that one each week while we chat for a few seconds. The cupcake came at the end of a long and high stress shift. It wasn't wrapped so I coudn't stow it in my purse. It sat there for a couple of hours. It was in the way and I kept bumping it with my hand and having to lick frosting off my finger. Finally I just ate the darned thing -- figuring one cupcake wouldn't kill me.
Here's the problem -- that stuff makes me hungrier!!! When I got home from work I really couldn't wait to eat something healthy. It was after midnight so it was Lean Cuisine to the rescue. I think all the sodium in those can really exacerbate hunger so I was still starving. TWO bagels later I was finally able to shut down the kitchen.
I stayed under my BMR for the day, especially including exercise, but I am frustrated with myself that I still can't resist temptation for very long. I can't have anything even the slightest bit tempting in the house or I will be up all night getting into it.
Lesson learned -- I will just start throwing things away that cannot be politely declined. Time to put on the walking/running shoes -- there's a snowstorm heading this way!! I can only kick myself for so long as exercise, LOL.