Saturday, December 08, 2012
Thank you CHERIRIDDELL for sending this to me.
This is EXACTLY how I feel.
- Without her, I am only another person.
- With her I am all powerful.
- With her, I know a secret comfort and a private peace.
I have never been able to really describe how I feel since May 10, 2011 (Aspen's passing). I think I am getting back to myself and I never do and this is why. This is what I am missing. I know I am crazy. And I know I am very lucky to have ever felt such peace. It however is now gone and will never feel the same. This show me that I have to work and reminding myself that I still have her.
I think this is to remind me of how my man must feel from losing his best friend so long ago.
Below is the the poem in it's entirety.
He is my other eyes that can see above the clouds;
my other ears that hear above the winds.
He is the part of me that can reach out into the sea.
He has told me more than a thousand times over that I am his reason for being:
by the way he rests against my leg:
by the way he thumps his tail at my smallest smile;
by the way he shows his hurt when I leave without taking him.
(I think it makes him sick with worry when he is not along to care for me).
When I am wrong , he is delighted to forgive.
WhenI am angry,he clowns to make me smile.
When I am happy, he is joy unbounded.
When I am a fool , he ignores it.
When I succeed, he brags.
Without him, I am only another person.
With him I am all powerful.
He is loyalty itself.
He has taught me the meaning of devotion.
With him, I know a secret comfort and a private peace.
He has brought me understanding where before I was ignorant .
His head on my knee can heal my human hurts.
His presence by my side is protection against my fears of dark and unknown things.
He has promised to wait for me... whenever...wherever, in case I need him.
And I expect I will,as I always have.
He is just my dog.
Didn't mean to be a downer. This just hit me like a truck head on.
Went for a walk with the pups, feeling better. Good to get it out every once and a while I suppose.