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Work Hard, Play Hard, Eat Hard!

Saturday, December 08, 2012

I never do anything half way. Its all or nothing! Balls out, guns blazing, full steam ahead, show no fear! Life on the edge! Work until you drop! Play until you can't take another step, eat until your gut is busting :P It can be your best friend and your worst enemy. I can pack the pounds on like crazy or peel them off, depending on my current state of mind.
I once played this console video game on loan, 24/7 for two weeks straight until I completed it -it was a difficult role playing game where you had to figure out challenges and how to get through things. I only slept when really tired and I fueled myself with salty snacks and pop. It was my brother's and I had to give it back when he completed his move. So I was going to finish it come Hell or high water.
When paintball came to my city the first time, I got into it big time. I was always the first with the latest, best guns available and the best camouflage, etc. etc. I got on the best teams and competed around the province in tournaments. All up until my RA came screaming back and took my knees out :P Crash and burn. Loss of my two jobs, a heavy lifting factory one and a night confectionery one. Couch potato time. Giving up. Thinking there is no future. Feeling sorry for myself, giving into to eating and doing what ever I wanted.
I decided to try University, ten years after graduating high school. I had bad study habits and struggled. barely made it into the College of Pharmacy. Made it two years and then the bottom fell out, and I developed severe iron deficiency anemia. I couldn't keep conscious my blood was so low. A combination stress from the University and my RA caused it. Out on my butt again, having to figure out what to do that would not stress me.
I was always a painfully shy introvert, and it was always a struggle for me to get out and do things. Only my intense desire or interest got me moving. I had heard about the game of bridge, but also heard the people were stuck up and snooty. So it took me quite a few years before I ventured out to take some lessons. Not having a card background, I found it overwhelming. But for some reason, I learned quickly and took to it like a duck to water. Pretty soon I had people asking me for MY notes on the game. Once again, I found a purpose and got into it big time. Tournaments and accolades followed. But then the health monster struck again. I developed severe allergies to air conditioning and could no longer tolerate those huge air conditioned hotel rooms. I stopped going to tournaments and my bridge career languished so to speak. I had games with good players at the club, but that slowly dwindled. My insomnia became worse and my game suffered greatly. I was near the point of quitting and giving up. Becoming the club manager gave me a new purpose once again and I threw myself into it. All or nothing. Work until the wee hours to finish something never mind clock watching. Yes it gives me motivation and the desire to finish long and arduous workouts. But sometimes its a little hard to shut all this mojo off.
I tell it like it is. I can only be honest. I have been told I need to have more tact. I feel you can't grow if everything is sugar-coated. Out of adversity comes strength. Sometimes a person needs to face the truth to be helped, however unpleasant that may be. This may rub people the wrong way. So if I have ever said or done something that has rubbed you the wrong way, please believe there was never malicious intent. I like to help people and I feel telling them the truth so they can face what needs to be changed in order to move ahead. I am not saying I am always right, but I have read a lot about health, fitness and nutrition and have learned from it. I have learned from hard life lessons too. I survived. You can too, and we can walk side by side in support of this journey.
Go hard or go home ;)
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    You've certainly NEVER ever rubbed me the wrong way, and you're one of the people that I admire most here at Spark: this further outline of your history only increases that admiration. Just keep on keeping on being you: a unique and totally feisty and powerful presence, always reinventing herself in the face of adversity.
    1834 days ago
    Don't ever change who you are. WE LOVE you for your honesty and helpfulness. Thanks for being here for me and helping me out through my tough times and I hope I helped is some small ways. YOU are truly inspirational and motivator if I ever so one. I love your energy and how you say it like it is. Truth never hurt for long only lies hurts the most. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1834 days ago
    I can honestly say, LInda, that you've never offended me. I needed what you told me so much because I believed it myself, just didn't have the power within until people like you came to my heed. I'm alot like you. I say it like I feel it. What people see from me is what and who I am. Oh yes, I've had to apologize at times, but that doesn't happen real often, thank goodness. We are who we are! I recently got offended for someone telling me some things so blunt here on SP! I didn't like it because I didn't believe it! I feel that she sure could've had more grace. I sure want more of it myself! She rubbed me the wrong way and I still feel it. I lack the guts to tell her off. Partly because she could be right too and I don't have enough knowledge to prove that she's right! You are such a good helper to me always and I appreciate that and I thank you! emoticon to you, Karen
    1834 days ago
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    You are amazing! I wish I had your energy (some of it!)
    1834 days ago
    Keep being who you are, Linda! I wouldn't have it or YOU any other way! I wish MORE people had it in them to speak what needed to be said!

    1834 days ago
    Well, you've never rubbed me the wrong way, Linda. I value so much more highly someone like you, who tells the truth as they see it, rather than someone who mindlessly cheerleads! emoticon
    1834 days ago
    As someone who tends to put things "nicely" most of the time, believe it or not, I admire those who are brave enough to put it all out there. The best gifts I have received in life have been words of truth from friends who were willing to risk the friendship to "tell it like it is".

    You CAN tell it like it is kindly... that end of the message the speaker controls. How it is *received* is beyond our control. That's all on the hearer.

    So keep on telling it like it is. To the best of ability "kindly"... but if it's not taken in the spirit it's offered... cut yourself some slack. Communication is a two-way street.

    Love you, woman! You're among my she-roes! emoticon
    1834 days ago
    great blog - i'm also a fanatic about everything i get involved in; DH rolls his eyes a bit, but knows that if i start getting interested in something new, like spark, and weight loss, it's going to take over our lives - which can be a Good Thing:-)
    1834 days ago
    Grat blog Linda, I like your attitude! emoticon
    1834 days ago
    You sound so much like me! Seriously! I will get to doing something and will not quit until I am almost sick or wore out! But, with RA being there, that would end up kicking you in the butt! Same with my and my Osteoarthritis & Fibromyalgia/Chronic Fatigue--we just hate to admit we are can't keep going, no matter what!! I get to sparking some nights and will be up really late...just to finish my SP notification emails, etc.
    I learned a few new things about you-pharmacy student, paint ball champ & a gamer!!! emoticon When I worked with medical insurance claims I was in charge of processing all the RX claims and updated the drug book for the company. Always thought I would have loved the pharmacy field-at least working as an assistant with them!
    Nothing wrong with being honest-and believe me some have been rubbed the wrong way with me for that- I tell it like it is too! So don't feel bad-and you have never offended me.
    Keep being who you are Linda-because you are awesome!!! You keep sparkin' on too!!! emoticon
    1835 days ago
    Honesty is the best gift you can give others. Sometimes it's tough, but well-worth it.
    1835 days ago
    emoticon Keep Telling it like it is, Linda. A constant diet of Sugar Coated Words is just as bad as a diet of Sugar Coated Food.
    1835 days ago
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