Friday, December 07, 2012
I really blew it this week ... I started it off on the right foot, but a night out with a friend started a spiral Im not proud of. Lots of junk food (that night) ... not much walking this week ... Im ashamed.
I had broken my Ultimate Goal into Four Phases:
Phase 1: 59.2 lbs in 3 Months
Pase 2: 30 lbs in 3 Months
Phase 3: 15 lbs in 3 Months
Phase 4: 5 lbs in 3 Months
I further broken down my Phases into Month Long Goals (Im very Goal Orientated)
Phase 1 - Month 1: 25.2 lbs
Phase 1 - Month 2: 18.0 lbs.
Phase 1 - Month 3: 16 lbs.
Well, thanks to a crappy week and my TOM last week ... Ive only lost 20.0 lbs.
I know what everyones going to say about that being fantastic and that my goals are way too high, but the truth is I do best with high expectations, goals, challenges, etc.
I was on track to finish this month strong ... (It also has an extra week cause my Phase 1 had 13 weeks) ... I should of been able to pull 25.2
I know Im being hard of myself - so far Im keeping going but I feel pretty down. I feel myself slipping away and Im scared I could allow this to let me give up. I dont want to.
I did loose 1/3 of my Phase 1 Goal with 2/3 of the Goal left .... so I shouldnt consider this a set back... but I do.
A great Spark Friend reminded me to BLOG! So here I am! Im blogging. I joined (as an Honoary Member) the Rockin Red Biggest Loser Team. Im checking in with my own team.
Im trying to keep PUSHING HARD. I know that I cant let this get me down. I deserve better than to treat myself like this! I am a STRONG WOMAN! I need to PUSH!
TWENTY POUNDS! I need to start chanting that. I CAN DO THIS!
(Just my Mid-Blog Pep Talk!)
Ok Spark Friends ... how do you get past feeling down on yourself? And ... I dont even want to say it ... giving up?
I have a lot to do lately too ... laundry that never ends, dishes that never end, PTO stuff that never ends (Im the Treasurer), and other life stresses that never seem to end.
I keep telling myself STOP MAKING EXCUSES .... this week had just been especially nutty.
I need to go put the kids to bed ... then I will tidy up and do laundry and dishes - complaining wont solve anything! I Can Do This!