Upset at Myself...
Friday, December 07, 2012
I really blew it this week ... I started it off on the right foot, but a night out with a friend started a spiral Im not proud of. Lots of junk food (that night) ... not much walking this week ... Im ashamed.
I had broken my Ultimate Goal into Four Phases:
Phase 1: 59.2 lbs in 3 Months
Pase 2: 30 lbs in 3 Months
Phase 3: 15 lbs in 3 Months
Phase 4: 5 lbs in 3 Months
I further broken down my Phases into Month Long Goals (Im very Goal Orientated)
Phase 1 - Month 1: 25.2 lbs
Phase 1 - Month 2: 18.0 lbs.
Phase 1 - Month 3: 16 lbs.
Well, thanks to a crappy week and my TOM last week ... Ive only lost 20.0 lbs.
I know what everyones going to say about that being fantastic and that my goals are way too high, but the truth is I do best with high expectations, goals, challenges, etc.
I was on track to finish this month strong ... (It also has an extra week cause my Phase 1 had 13 weeks) ... I should of been able to pull 25.2
I know Im being hard of myself - so far Im keeping going but I feel pretty down. I feel myself slipping away and Im scared I could allow this to let me give up. I dont want to.
I did loose 1/3 of my Phase 1 Goal with 2/3 of the Goal left .... so I shouldnt consider this a set back... but I do.
A great Spark Friend reminded me to BLOG! So here I am! Im blogging. I joined (as an Honoary Member) the Rockin Red Biggest Loser Team. Im checking in with my own team.
Im trying to keep PUSHING HARD. I know that I cant let this get me down. I deserve better than to treat myself like this! I am a STRONG WOMAN! I need to PUSH!
TWENTY POUNDS! I need to start chanting that. I CAN DO THIS!
(Just my Mid-Blog Pep Talk!)
Ok Spark Friends ... how do you get past feeling down on yourself? And ... I dont even want to say it ... giving up?
I have a lot to do lately too ... laundry that never ends, dishes that never end, PTO stuff that never ends (Im the Treasurer), and other life stresses that never seem to end.
I keep telling myself STOP MAKING EXCUSES .... this week had just been especially nutty.
I need to go put the kids to bed ... then I will tidy up and do laundry and dishes - complaining wont solve anything! I Can Do This!
Member Comments About This Blog Post
Thanks Karen :)
1593 days ago
Good for you getting all of this out !!!! Its a great release !! I am so proud of you ! Hmmm - this past week as you know was Birthday week - My over due list is worse than yours !!! LOL
Now that you have gotten all of this off your chest - Put down the BAT !!! You found out that you are human after all!! This is why we need to take time for ourselves. Concentrate on the life style change not on the weight , it will come off - trust me ! First make sure you getting your sleep - do not skip on the calories - that will tell your hypothalamus that you are starving - and will actually hold onto the fat. Its true - Marcella Peck wrote a book called The Core Weight - buy yourself a Christmas presents - it under $20.00 bucks online through Hull House all natural - since I have bought this book I have lost 24 inches off my core - If you need me I am here !! Hugs Karen
1596 days ago
Comment edited on: 12/10/2012 11:00:15 AM
Thank you thank you thank you!
Im so sorry I havnet been posting! Ive been reading messages (and tracking food/excercise via the app) ... but my moms been here for a few days (lives 2 hours away so a real treat) and Ive been wrapped up in spending time with her....
BUT! I wanted to stop here and say THANK YOU so much to everyone! You really helped me get past my "poor me" stage and Im back at it! Focusing on the positives and NEVER GIVING UP!!!!! :)
1597 days ago
You are definitely being way too hard on yourself ! Don't look at weight loss or good health with an all or nothing mentality. One over indulgent day or even week of eating WILL NOT make or break your healthy lifestyle. We all have days we eat more than others. It's going to happen. That does not make you a bad person or an unhealthy one.
While a safe weekly weight loss would be 1-2 pounds per week, there may be weeks you don't lose. there may even be weeks you gain ! And that doesn't mean you're doing anything wrong. This isn't the Biggest Loser. the weight doesn't magically drop off the minute we decide we need to lose. Weight loss really is a slow steady process that takes time.
Let me tell you what I learned from my own years of yo yo dieting and it's this, the faster a person takes off the weight, the faster it packs back on. Take the weight off slowly and it will stay off.
As the old song goes,"accentuate the positive and eliminate the negative". Give yourself credit for the positive things you do for yourself and don't beat yourself up because you're not perfect. You don't have to be perfect to be healthy. Set reasonable goals for your body so that you don't set yourself up for failure.
Losing 20 pounds really is pretty fantastic.
1598 days ago
Comment edited on: 12/8/2012 6:43:18 AM
I think SparkPeople is right, rather than focus on WEIGHT LOSS as our goals, maybe we should focus on eating within our calorie range as our goals and then the weight loss will come, this helps us to feel more accomplished.
Sometimes that scale won't move, but at least we can say "I met my goal of eating well 7 days this week and working out x amount of minutes"
Also, please remember my tip, becfor I go to a party, dinner, Holiday feast, or go to a friend's house- I eat a healthy filling snack, like an apple, fiber one bat and string cheese, or a sandwich and carrot sticks, so that I won't over indulge while out.
1599 days ago
Cra, you really can do this! Sure your goals are high, you set them & you know best what you're capable of. It's OK to reforecast your goals as you go.
Start fresh from this moment. There's no reason to let a bad week dereail you. It hasn't & won't undo all of your progress.
Keep going! It's worth repeating: you can do this!
1599 days ago
Yes you can do it!
1599 days ago
Wow, those are really HUGE numbers! Seriously, when I was at my highest weight, 255 lbs, the most I *ever* lost in one month was 12.5 lbs, and most of that was water... Just don't get discouraged if those numbers aren't always so high, okay?
1599 days ago
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