Friday, December 07, 2012
As my last post suggested, I fell off the vegan wagon for 2 days. I at least stayed vegetarian (no meat), but I used butter to make some couscous and a rice dish, and I ate what was left of the cheese in my fridge. And, I have to say, it made me sick. Not emotionally (well, ok, yes, emotionally I felt guilty and weak and disappointed with myself), but physically, I have felt sick for the last 2 days. I could go into details, but I'll spare you. Is it possible I just had a psychosomatic response? Yes, but I doubt it. I was feeling fine -- good actually -- and then I felt like crap, and the only thing that had changed in those days was the fact that I ate some dairy.
I think what led to my slip up was feeling frustrated by a lack of ideas as to what to eat, boredom, and craving certain things (like cheese). Day 11 in the book talks about meat cravings, and how we don't actually crave meat itself, we crave the fat, salt and even the texture that is found in meat. So I am thinking my "cheese craving" might actually be a craving for salty, gooey/melty food.
I returned to the grocery store today (I know, I know, I said I was going to see how long I could hold out...apparently one week!). I made sure to buy enough variety of foods to make some interesting meals, and I purchased some "comfort foods" like chocolate muffins, ice cream, and soups (all vegan, of course). And I found some vegan sandwich bread so I can make PB&Js.
I am still determined to be vegan when I go home to see my parents at Christmas (hard to believe I am already a third of the way through the 30-day challenge!). According to the scale, I lost a pound, but I won't be counting that officially until my weigh-in day (Monday).