"When I up, down and touch the ground
It puts me in the mood,
Up, down and touch the ground
In the mood for food
I am stout, round and I have found
Speaking poundage wise
I improve my appetite
When I exercise"
~Winnnie the Pooh
Right now I feel like "Pooh"! I haven't blogged about anything in a while, so I thought I'd put my thoughts into words for once.
I was trying to set a goal since my last doc visit in September, to lose just one pound a week. That didn't sound like much - one measly pound - and I could get a decent chunk of weight off of me by the end of the year. What I really want to be is under 200 lbs, and this would help me get there.
Lo and behold, it's not happening. Why? Same thing as usual. I lose a few, then my mom comes to town and stays 1+ weeks, and she has to see "everyone" (family - which means eating out). This just really throws a monkey wrench into my life....and it's ongoing! I'm doing much better with it - I make more meals, force her to eat my healthy lunches, etc., but the added salt, calories, fat, etc. of constantly going out is just killing me. Top that off with her sweet and snack tooth at night....and I just keep going up and down so that it's a big maintain overall.
Now, I know that you're probably saying, "She has the choice to eat better" and you're right....kind of. I do my best when we're out like choosing betting places to eat for lunch (Panera). But the higher salt content and fats alone are a killer day after day on weight loss and it's hard to find real low-cal for dinner. To my mom, this is a "vacation" - it happens once or twice a month. To me, it's stressful. I love my mom and want her to visit, but I know it'll be an eating nightmare (and yes, I have talked to her about it - she thinks she's my "diet buddy" but then says she's 78 and at this age, she doesn't care what she eats).
Now we're to the holidays and I'm basically the same weight. Two months have passed and I have nothing to show for it. I lost 3 lbs this week, but hey, next week my mom will be back. The good news is she'll only be here for a few days this time, so maybe I can escape the excessive bad eating. The bad news is we're right in the middle of the holiday season and it's already hard!
My niece's wedding is March 2nd. I don't want to be the fattest one in the family pictures, but I still will be. BUT I can be smaller than I am now! I need to gain control. Can I even do it??? I HAVE to do it - for me...
I'm going to take my own advice: ONE MEAL AT A TIME - ONE DAY AT A TIME!
I have to quit going on "auto-pilot". I need to make the better choice when picking out food - even if it means just cutting back on the "good stuff" and loading up with the freggies - it's still a choice. I have to stop the lazy, mindless eating (that's where I get stuck....routine and just being tired, so I choose what's easy). High sodium, fat and carbs won't get me healthy or take the weight off, so something's got to give. The trade off is filling up with more freggies and a few low-cal substitutes - it'll make all the difference.
And then there's the Bikini plate: 1/2 veggies, 1/4 protein, 1/4 carbs. I need to do this too. I "forget" because I'm always on autopilot...I need to start thinking about my actions!
Oh Fluff 'n Stuff....I don't want to be the Bear of Little Brain! Time to take action and think for myself!