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My "WOW! Okay, Maybe Now I Belive it!" Moment

Friday, December 07, 2012

My BFF and I have been insperable Besties for 17 years.

In those 17 years, she's always been "that person" to me who I always looked up to and secretly wished "GOD, I wish I had her body!!" Okay, not really so secretley, I've told it to her face MANY times over the years LOL. She's always been that effortlessly skinny friend, who makes anything look good, always looks put together, and never has to worry about her weight. JEALOUS!!! ;) emoticon I've also always secretly thought to myself, "she's so tiny, there's NO way I'll ever be as small as her."

So, last night after our GNO dinner, I went back to her house to "shop" in her closet for something to wear for some photos I am having taken on Sunday. As she throwing all these itty bitty clothes from her closet at me, I kept squawking at her "Those are too dang tiny!! They will never fit!! Put those back, I'll ever fit into your jeans!" She'd scoff and roll her eyes at me (as best friends do) and say "but Stacey, you ARE tiny!!" To which I would scoff and roll my eyes dramatically back and say "NO way!" Whole heartedly believing that even after losing as much as I have, and despite fitting back into MY OWN skinny jeans, it was completely unfathomable to me that I might actually fit into HERS.

To boot, the jeans she was having me try on were Rock & Republic brand, size 28. First of all, those kinds of swanky brands NEVER fit me!! They are cut for stick figures, not girls with curves. And secondly, I laughed so hard at her because there was NO WAY I have EVER been a 28!! My hips are WAY too wide...

So, finally, and against my will, I agreed to try on her baby jeans. Just to prove her wrong emoticon As I'm undressing, the whole time I'm shaking my head and thinking to myself "no way, uh-uh, ain't gonna happen, NOPE!"

One leg in.... "Okay, SO what, BIG whoop, I got my calves in. That doesn't mean anything. I'll never get these things over my thighs, let alone get them up over these big ole' hips!!"

Both legs in, and sliding up over my thighs.... "UMMM?? HUH?!?!? Well, that's interesting.... MUST be the cut... Still, they will NEVER zip. Just you watch."

"HOLY COW!!! They are over my butt?????!!!!!"

"Big Deal! They'll NEVER zip, and even IF they do, I'll surely look like a can of busted biscuits!"

Buttoned, and zipped???????.... "HOLY ______________________________

Not only did they zip, but they must be space pants or something because they even made my butt look flat!! SAY WHA!?!?!?!? What IS this trickery!?!?!

I was absolutely speechless. Bestie was just sitting there with a ridiculous ear to ear grin jumping up and down laughing at me. Much to my dismay and utter SHOCK, those things actually FIT!! I was in my bestie's jeans!! I know it seems trite, and shallow, and probably pretty stupid to most people, but this is one of those things to me that was just unfathomble! Never in my life would I EVER think I'd EVER be as small as her! EVER! I always WISHED I was, and wanted to be, but it always seemed like such an unreachable goal.

Bestie says "SEE! What did I tell you! You ARE small!"

"Okay.. FINE, maybe I believe it now." emoticon

Afterwards, I had to stop and take a moment to really digest what had just happened. I had a big epiphany moment! All of this time I've been sitting here hating on myself, talking down to myself, looking in the mirror and not seeing "the real" me. I've been convincing myself that depsite all my hard work, the person starring back at me was still the old "fat me." It took literally wearing someone else's pants to show me just how skewed my perception of myself really is!

Now, this won't seem significant to anyone but me.... But way back when I started on this journey 4 years ago, I said to myself if I ever reached my goal weight/size I would reward myself with a pair of jeans from Buckle. Never in my life have I spent more than $30 on a pair of jeans, and the very thought of spending $100 plus really freaks me out... But for this, my ultimate goal I said I would splurge and treat myself to ONE pair of really nice jeans.... So, as a gift bestie gave me two pairs of her jeans. The Rock & Republic, and a pair of Silver Jeans from Buckle. LOVE THAT GIRL!!

When I left her house I was over the moon. I tried explaining all this to my hubby and he just looked at me like I had two heads and said "So WAIT! You still think you're fat!? You ARE crazy!!" LOL gotta love husbands...

Here they are :)

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
MERRY_XMAS 12/19/2012 4:55AM

    My best friend used to be bigger than me so during her journey I gave her all the clothes that were bigger than my size. So, now, we weigh about the same and she still doesn't believe it so I dared her to try the clothes I wear now, and ofc they fit... She was speechless...
You look amazing and you really are tiny! Well done!

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FITGIRL15 12/14/2012 2:10PM

    Yayyyy! You look great! PS... no one likes a flat bum, just sayin.

Congrats on all your succcess... and yes, you are SMALL!!!!

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CARADAWN 12/13/2012 9:27AM

    Congrats! I think everyone has that friend and now I bet you are that girl for lots of your friends :) The jeans look GREAT on you emoticon

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DESYACV2 12/13/2012 2:25AM

    wow that's amazing, congratulations. keep up the great work. you look fantastic btw. emoticon

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JENIYE_707 12/12/2012 6:49PM

    You look amazing. Congrats

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JORDAN1019 12/11/2012 3:19PM

    You look amazing!! You're officially the skinny girl that others will hate on for looking so!! emoticon

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KARAALYNN 12/11/2012 8:51AM

    You look hotttttt girl! Congrats!!!!

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SALLY_MANDER 12/10/2012 5:11PM

    You are so beautiful! And tiny! And I understand everything you said in this blog (even the part about your husband's reaction - I get that from mine, too.)
Congrats on truly seeing yourself for what you are now, not what you were.

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FERFEY02 12/10/2012 2:21PM

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EBIELOU 12/10/2012 10:59AM

    Amazing! Glad you had your aha moment:)

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AMYSFITLIFE 12/10/2012 10:53AM

    That is Awsome!!!!

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SKINNYPOWELL1 12/10/2012 9:56AM

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FLGIRL1234 12/10/2012 9:49AM

    AWESOME! I bet the feeling was over the moon excited. Like you, my best friend is a super skinny stick figure and I would never in a million years have thought I could wear her clothes except a few years back (before I re-gained the weight), We could actually swap clothes. I remember thinking just you did that there was NO way but then when it happened I freaked. Congrats on all your hard work. I plan on "fitting" my friends clothes again soon. No going back this time.


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ALICIALYNNE 12/10/2012 9:36AM

    WOOOOHOOOOO! You go, girl!!

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FITBECKSRN24 12/9/2012 9:30PM

    my hubby yells at me all the time about stuff like that! If i'm having a bad day ill make a comment about how fat i feel or how i cant find anything to wear, or nothing looks good, ect ect. I also never take a compliment from someone. I don't know why but I never believe people. Hubby told me the other day one of his friends from work told him he couldn't believe i had had a baby cause it didn't even look like it. my response was, oh that doesnt even count, i had workout clothes on and they were baggy!!! he got so mad at me and said... "you never believe anyone!! you look amazing, take the compliment!!".

when will the "fat girl" leave our mind sets???

also---i want to see a pic of those jeans miss!! you were so proud to fit in them (and you should be!) show them off gf!! =D

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CANES4EVER63 12/9/2012 8:16AM

    Aww, GREAT blog!! I'm the same way with my best friend. We're the same height and I think she's tiny!! I would love to be able to have her body, her size small name brand shirts and size 4 Hollister or American Eagle jeans. Eventually...

Keep up the great work!!!

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SWDESERTLOVER 12/8/2012 12:47PM

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SUSIQZER 12/8/2012 7:10AM

    That just made my morning! Congrats on getting into those skinny jeans!!

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CAYCESMOM 12/7/2012 5:20PM

    Great story!! I am so happy for you!! Spark on!!! emoticon

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5WHITEROSES 12/7/2012 2:11PM

    That is awesome!!!!

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CAGMUAHFO2 12/7/2012 1:53PM

    That is great feeling isn't it?!?!!? So happy you hade your WOW moment!! It makes the journey sooooo worth it!!!

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GINGERHAWK 12/7/2012 1:23PM

  Man, I have a totally thin and beautiful bestie, too. It's so hard not to be envious at times. Your's sounds great - how nice of her to give you the jeans. Sadly enough I have never heard of either brand. I guess avoid any jean with that high of a price tag. emoticon It's funny how we have such skewed perceptions of ourselves. Sometimes we need someone else to break it down for us before we 'get it'. I'm really excited for your wow moment. Congrats!

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SHMARA 12/7/2012 1:16PM

    This is too cool! I had one of these moments years back, fitting into my best friend's jeans too. It felt amazing, I had to believe that I was just like someone I had always looked up to. emoticon

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FOXYPHAEDRA 12/7/2012 1:16PM

    Awesome!!! Congratulations on all your hard work and success! I know I had a hard time believing it when my hips fit into size 28 jeans as well! But what a super fantastic feeling! I'm so happy you can finally acknowledge and be proud of your accomplishments and your fit, healthy body! emoticon

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LYNSEY723 12/7/2012 1:10PM

    I totally understand!! My bestie is thin too and always looks so put together and cute! Even when she's being lazy and just "throws something together". emoticon on your "ah-ha" moment!! You ARE skinny!!!

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MELLYBEANS0919 12/7/2012 1:04PM

    How exciting for you! :-)

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CREEKLADY1 12/7/2012 12:54PM

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MAGGIEVAN 12/7/2012 12:53PM

    I understand your excitement. Congrats.

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