This isn't goodbye
Friday, December 07, 2012
Now before I go to far, I will have to note my blogs tagged as public, are also private. I actually re read these..... These are my vents, my outlet if you will. If you do not like what you read, sorry for you... This, I have decided is what will help keep me accountable in many aspects of. My life.
I digress.... Saying goodbye, it's a big step or sometimes it is a forced hand. For weight loss, it is a big step-- to not step through the doors temptation. For me and my family today, it was just the hand that was dealt. We remember the life of my Grandfather, who passed away 12/7/04. Life as gone on, and the family has grown by two members. So today, when we gather with my almost 92 year old grandmother to decorate her house and tree ( she still lives alone in her own house!) we will sing, laugh and be merry. I have carrots, bananas and as a special treat avocado nachoes..... Instead of cookie upon cookie! Will I have a cookie, probably.. It is a cookie, not the end of the world.
I feel that if we deprive ourselves of some of the finer/sweeter things in life we will over indulge at our weakest moments. Little here and there...take those ginormous peanut butter cups! LOL I have some left, I cut the first into a pie, 8 somewhat equal pieces, that would be the equalivant to two mini cups, and shared them with company. The final one, is cut into the same small pieces and slowly is being enjoyed.
I can say goodbye to foods like that, but I would be fooling myself! I approach it as I am taking a little leave, but I will be back for a little visit....
So this holiday season, however you celebrate, enjoy LIFE, you get one good chance. Take things in stride and look before you eat, say hi to old friends (cupcakes, mini cheesecakes, ect), wave and come back again...after you have eaten all the carrots, and drank loads of water! Lol
My brain is on overlaid, two twelve hour shifts done! Not a lot of sleep, so if this is crazy from the remembrance of my grandfather to waving to cheesecake.... Welcome to my brain and my world! I read this and it makes sence to me... It is my way of telling me that yep, life sucks.... (wait until next month when it is my dads passing anniversary, gulp) we can stay down and smother ourselves in self pity and food and drink OR We can choose to get up, say goodbye to the crap and move, move move.
December 4- my brothers birthday
December 5- my birthday
December 6 - my nieces birthday
December 7- the day my grandfather passed.