Thursday, December 06, 2012
Today was great! Been a long time since I've felt that way and to be honest I am soaking up every minute because I am worried it is too good to be true and will be short lived. The kids have slept all night for two nights in a row! Sshhhh! Don't ruin it by jinxing it. I hate to feel that way but it never lasts more than a night or two. It just doesn't. Wish it did but it never has. I'm worried too because tonight my daughter earned her "slumber party" as we call it. If she sleeps well she earns a sticker and if she earns a certain amount she gets to sleep with us. This worked but then backfired, like so many of my other parenting efforts. I think they sound good and then they come back to bite me. We definitely need to come up with a way to discontinue this prize. She will do good to earn them, but then after she has her slumber party she takes a week to start doing good again. So I will be praying the entire night that this doesn't mess her up. She has promised up and down that she will continue to do well after this but actions speak louder than words. We'll know soon enough.
It is just amazing how good it feels to sleep. I mean really sleep. For several uninterrupted hours in a row. It is amazing. I felt happy today. It's been a long time. I ate good and went for a jog. It was a good day. I felt alive and not as though I was walking dead. I hope I get to have this feeling more frequently. Kids sure have taken a toll on me. They are most definitely worth it but gosh I miss feeling alive and happy.