Thursday, December 06, 2012
I have had abdominal surgery before, so I kinda knew what to expect as far as recovery went.... I had NO idea it would be this slow going...!!! I have had it rougher this go round than I ever imagined. I somehow had it in my head I would have the lap band surgery and be able to go to work by Monday.... (I am not SuperWoman is hard to accept)
I will admit I didn't know that when they did the surgery I would have to have a liver biopsy, and a hernia repaired too. Then they tell me that they couldn't get the spleen because they weren't prepared for it to be as large as it was and they didn't have enough blood on hand for me....so we get to do that in a few....O GOODY!!
I have walked, walked walked and walked. I am sticking to my diet, will admit that I am so ready to chew on something it isnt funny tho!! Adding new soups blended of course, has helped. I stay so full it is really hard to get anything down.
I got on the scale today, and I had lost 4 lbs...!!! YAY right?? I feel like I can't tell I have lost anything. I didn't get my measurements before surgery, and as soon as I am able to make a trip to Wal-Mart I will invest in a tape measure, one that isn't metal!!
I will admit my kids have been pretty good. The youngest realized his mom is a sick mom, I think hearing the doctor talk to his aunt after surgery he understands more. The oldest one...well lets just say the Police have been by to question him already about some break ins....I try to just let it go...I can't worry about him any longer. He is grown, I did what I could...yes, I say this, but it isn't how I feel...I feel like a failure where he is concerned. But we just keep repeating he is grown, he isn't your responsibility any longer....
I am not up to putting up the Christmas decorations, and I am really not in the mood to shop. I have tried to shop for a few things online, but it isn't the same. However, I don't mind not having to deal with rude people!!
I just didn't realize how slow recovery would be. But I am so proud that I am doing it. I managed to sleep in my bed last night for the first time since I have been home. My back is really sore, and that doesn't seem to be improving, I know it will in time...Patience has never been a virtue of mine...yall please pray I learn it now!!!