Thursday, December 06, 2012
New account, new age, new life, new challenges...new me. Motivation & frame of mind has changed so much, that I can hardly believe it. I have a big goal, but this time the weight better look out, because I'm armed. I'm armed with postive attitudes, and faith. Faith that this goal will one day be achieved, and one day soon. Faith that I will be slim, trim, and smiling in front of that camera, mirror, or crowd. New horizons have opened, & life has sent me a challenge. Well, as people seem to say all the time now: "Challenge Accepted."
Introducing myself: I'm 19 years old, and currently in college. All my life I haven't paid enough attention to what my body has been like until back in 2010 when I hit 10th grade in high school. I looked myself up one side and down the next...and quietly burst into tears. I was smaller than my original peak weight in 8th grade of 2008, but I was still unhappy. I wish I could say that at that moment I was motivated, but I wasn't. Surprisingly though, as we moved into our new house, I dropped about 28-32 pounds. Man was I happy. I curled my hair, wore clothes that just didn't look good before, and enjoyed a couple good pictures. Then upon hearing of my Brother's wedding coming up, I stupidly began eating white bread like crazy. In terms of saltines by the packet load, late night snacking, & white bread sandwhiches twice per day. By the time my brother's wedding came in the Spring of 2011, I was back up to my starting weight, and the wedding pictures were aweful. Now I'm back, with a force. I've had it, I'm sick of it, and it's going to stop. I believe with all my heart that this time is going to be the success I've been crying for. The success my heart longs for, aches for. Here comes my dreams of being fit, thin, & running marathons...because now I have a clearer view, and a new perspective.
My Weight Now:
-weight: who knows!
Yes thats right, who knows, and who cares on my weight now. I'm doing a new thing that I think will keep me in better spirits. Yes, I'm aching to know what I weigh, but I'm also not stupid. I know if I step on that scale, I'm going to hate myself...so I'm staying away from it...farrrr away. From now on, my success will be measured by how well my clothing begins to fit, how my fitness level increases, & how my mirror reflects my image. I'm sick of looking at numbers on the scale, & scolding myself for the night before. No way am I doing that again. I may possibly start measuring my waist and things, but that's far less depressing than that evil scale.
What have I done so far in 2012?:
-i've been soda free for about 2 1/2 years, accept for occasional tastes at restaurants.
-i've tried cutting down on my portions, & has worked pretty well.
-two days ago I put together a strength building routine, & i'm feelin the burn.
-i've cut out the trips to the store for a candy bar, & i don't miss them at all.
-i've completely stopped mcdonalds now for 1 1/2 years. don't miss that at all either.
-recently, about 1 month ago, i have begun to believe in my goal...& that's what changed me.
Being postive, seeing myself already there. Acting as if I've already achieved my goal...that is what it's all about now. I'm seeing myself in that beautiful size 9 instead of 18. I'm seeing myself 92-95 pounds down. I'm seeing myself in the clothes I want to wear, doing the things I want to do. I'm seeing myself running that last few feet at the Marathon. That's the girl that is inside me. She's happy, she's fit, she loves exercise...and now it's time for her to come out.
Things that still need to happen:
-control dinner portions even better. relax girl, a small portion will fill you up fine!
-stop, stop, stop, stop, stop talking myself into one little taste of a midnight snack!
-you see that cookie over there girl? well I only need one, not 3. only eat ONE.
-yes, hear that dance music? feel the beat? well get off my butt & bust a move. work out!
Who will join me? (add me if you'd like, but please introduce yourself in my comments so I know you've added me. I don't bite. If you're shy, just leave a smiley face to let me know).(also, if you'd like to know my weights/starting weight, & things like that...ask me & I'll tell you).