Thursday, December 06, 2012
So my first class back after illness turned out to be a private lesson! No one else turned up, I am guessing it is the time of year.. so I had Robert all to myself for a whole hour!
That wasn't all. My leotard was a tad small but last night it fit me perfectly! I wore my new black tights with it and my ballet skirt and I felt and looked good! Well at least from the front and back, when I look at myself sideways I can't believe the sheer width of my tummy area.. it's horrendous.. what is with that? I mean, okay I had a 12 lb baby as my first and have been overweight a long time and my tummy was never the same but why am I so huge side on? Help!
I was having real issues with my balance during center work and my balance used to be one of the things I did best so it is very crushing and frustrating for me. I am hoping that it gets easier for me with practice and further weight loss and fitness.
Despite that Robert had some really nice things to say. I told him it has been decades since I danced and I am actually quite proud of myself for what I can do. He told me he thinks I am very good, good musicality, artistic, expressive, great positioning and I know when I do something wrong because I can feel it which is also really good. Can you say I was on cloud nine? Still glowing from that and very hopeful for the future.
The meeting with me and the School Coordinator and the Artistic Director of the company is set for Tuesday December 18 at lunchtime. Honestly folks I don't think I am asking for the world. I know I will never be a member of the company and I know that I will never be a Prima and I will never be a professional dancer. And I researched and found many more adult dancers out there who feel as I do.. I just want to be the best that I am capable of and I want the chance to perform to show what I can do. I also found out that some dance companies showcase their adult classes and give them the opportunity to perform. I don't want to just dance character, I want to do some 'pretty' ballet too and I want to do Pointe.. and so apparently do a LOT of other adult dancers. I am at their mercy, but I am also in good company. So fingers crossed.
I haven't returned to swimming yet but I am ready, stiff from ballet last night I think it would be good to get in the pool in the next couple of days and gradually work up to where I was before. I also might go for some Zumba classes I think to up my stamina levels and perhaps balance!