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Thursday, December 06, 2012

Mali is getting her fair share of attention in SP Land. We've had her about 4 1/2 years, and no one has called her "perfect" until now (thanks, Karen!!).

On to stupid things. I have been doing pretty well with food management, and I even drank my waters yesterday, and I was a half-pound heavier this morning. I think that I need to move around more.

I am depressed, and am not doing the stuff that I need to do to make myself feel better or, at least, distracted, when I am at home. Gifts wrapped? Nope. Baking? Nope (well, that's legitimately ok, as I really don't have the time -- it takes planning -- and I don't need the calories). Play with orchids? Nope. Getting home too late. Too cold to be watering them. Reading? Yep, but the book, while fascinating and well-written, isn't the funny book that I thought that it would be. I'm worried about my mom, feeling guilty because I'm working tomorrow night and she'll be alone. We see her on Saturday, and will take her to see my SIL's play; then we plan to spend the night with her.

I cleared a bunch of old basura off of my desk yesterday and shredded it. A good start.

Maybe if I get that good cry out of my system, the figurative weight will be shed and my literal weight loss will get kick-started.
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    Have a good cry!
    1928 days ago
    I know it's hard, but that's when the tough get going. Focus on your Mom right now instead of yourself, her loss might be greater than your own. I don't mean to sound harsh, we each grieve differently.
    1928 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/7/2012 11:03:05 AM
    I used to get like pre-period - emotional, depressed, didn't want to do anything. Some vitamin B6 helped me a lot (with the bloating and water retention, as well as the emotional stuff).

    Feel better!
    1929 days ago
    Be gentle with yourself and do whatever helps you feel better. I slept a LOT for several days after my dad passed away. And for at least a few months, I would cry every morning on the way to work. Crying is a big stress reducer for me. I read years ago the tears we cry in grief are chemically different from when we cry in pain. Everybody's needs and ways of coping are different when it comes to grieving. There is no rulebook, so do what feels helpful to YOU.
    1929 days ago
  • MISSB8604
    My dear SparkFriend, please be kind to yourself! You can do this and you’ve got SparkFriends who are there for you. If you can, try to get in at LEAST 15 minutes of exercise and you’ll see that scale move.
    Keep your head up! YOU ROCK.

    1929 days ago
    Awwww . . . MAJOR HUGS! xoxoxo
    1929 days ago
    1929 days ago
    I hate crying, but my niece says it helps her. She always watches "Where The Red Fern Grows" when she wants to have a good cry.
    1929 days ago
    I hope that you can treat yourself with infinite care and patience. The loss of a parent is always a huge change and it can take many months to even pretend to be back to normal. This is a particularly difficult time of year to go through bereavement. Be kind and patient with yourself.

    I am really sorry.
    1929 days ago
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