Thursday, December 06, 2012
December 6, 2012
It's been a struggle lately for me to be happy with my weight progress. I know it's fine. I'm still within range, but it seems so difficult right now to stay here. The scale swings back and forth every day lately, and the trend seems to be more in the up direction than in the down/maintain. I have aimed to drop to 143 (my original goal weight has been 148), because in my mind I want that extra 5 pounds for security. This is the first time in my life I have ever re-claimed a healthy weight since beginning my upward movement in the mid-nineties but not the first time I have experienced weight loss throughout that time, so it’s really important for me to do a good job of maintaining it this time.
I have never- since before adolescence- been this thin in my life, and I am very comfortable in my clothes, and with my general appearance. Is everything as tight and smooth as it was in my youth?? Absolutely not, but the general population would only know that at my admission.
I don't really know if my struggle comes from the temptations/worries of holiday insane food opportunities or if it's partly from stress. I feel like I’m doing pretty well with the knowledge that a fair number of my family members have been dealing with some really significant health issues lately, but I wonder in the back of my mind- am I allowing this sadness/ worry/etc covertly to influence my emotional food appetite.
I want to remain positive about the things my family members are facing, because I know that no good comes from excess worry, but it has really made me think more about the reality of aging and the impact on health along with the decisions we make about our health while we are young. The health issues of age have just made themselves abundantly clear to me that they have moved one degree closer to me than they were a decade ago...it was great grandparents and grandparents who were in this category- not my uncles...which allows me to make the logical lateral move to my parents.
My takeaway from this- in this moment- it is the personal responsibility of each and every one of us to take active steps to value our health every day and to learn the steps and habits that make the best health possible a reality for all of us for as long as possible. I have been blessed with good health my entire life- and I intend to continue to treat that as the gift that it is by doing everything in my power to remain in my best possible health. The truth is, I believe I’m doing that, so would it be fair so say that a reality check is in order for me to quit fixating on the minutia of my up and down daily weights....probably.
I still would like to see my weight stay in the 142-147 range instead of the 147-151 range that it’s been bouncing in, but I’m going to work on being more accepting of where I am (as long as it doesn’t exceed 151).