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Thursday, December 06, 2012

December 6, 2012
It's been a struggle lately for me to be happy with my weight progress. I know it's fine. I'm still within range, but it seems so difficult right now to stay here. The scale swings back and forth every day lately, and the trend seems to be more in the up direction than in the down/maintain. I have aimed to drop to 143 (my original goal weight has been 148), because in my mind I want that extra 5 pounds for security. This is the first time in my life I have ever re-claimed a healthy weight since beginning my upward movement in the mid-nineties but not the first time I have experienced weight loss throughout that time, so it’s really important for me to do a good job of maintaining it this time.
I have never- since before adolescence- been this thin in my life, and I am very comfortable in my clothes, and with my general appearance. Is everything as tight and smooth as it was in my youth?? Absolutely not, but the general population would only know that at my admission.
I don't really know if my struggle comes from the temptations/worries of holiday insane food opportunities or if it's partly from stress. I feel like I’m doing pretty well with the knowledge that a fair number of my family members have been dealing with some really significant health issues lately, but I wonder in the back of my mind- am I allowing this sadness/ worry/etc covertly to influence my emotional food appetite.
I want to remain positive about the things my family members are facing, because I know that no good comes from excess worry, but it has really made me think more about the reality of aging and the impact on health along with the decisions we make about our health while we are young. The health issues of age have just made themselves abundantly clear to me that they have moved one degree closer to me than they were a decade was great grandparents and grandparents who were in this category- not my uncles...which allows me to make the logical lateral move to my parents.
My takeaway from this- in this moment- it is the personal responsibility of each and every one of us to take active steps to value our health every day and to learn the steps and habits that make the best health possible a reality for all of us for as long as possible. I have been blessed with good health my entire life- and I intend to continue to treat that as the gift that it is by doing everything in my power to remain in my best possible health. The truth is, I believe I’m doing that, so would it be fair so say that a reality check is in order for me to quit fixating on the minutia of my up and down daily weights....probably.
I still would like to see my weight stay in the 142-147 range instead of the 147-151 range that it’s been bouncing in, but I’m going to work on being more accepting of where I am (as long as it doesn’t exceed 151).
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    I relate to your blog in not liking the fluctuations on the scale. But having tracked them daily for the past 11 weeks, I am seeing that this appears to be the norm so am working on not letting it cause me worry. Maintenance is such a new place for me - always yoyoed and accepted that as the norm. It definitely takes some new learning.
    1894 days ago
    Seems like a lot of us are in the same boat this time of year. I think the shorter days and colder temperatures make it easier to indulge and not work it off as well as the summer lets us! But we can do it, we can maintain if we focus on what we need to focus on, eating healthy, moving more.

    I've been letting my maintenance range creep up over the past year, and while I too am happy with the way I look, and my clothes are fitting fine, I'm seriously considering lowering the range again. I'm going to maintain at my current range until January, and then try to drop down to a lower range and see how that goes. Maybe that's what you want to do too?
    1896 days ago
  • CHARITY1973
    I am just learning this lesson, that health is a gift not to be squandered on youthful insouciance (what an awesome word, my 12yr old to the tee). It is to be treasured and nurtured. Today I aim to place health at the head of the table!

    And thank you for the reminder about running tunes. I used the song list on my HM today to good avail. 2:04min, 25 minutes off last year's time!
    1898 days ago
  • KANOE10
    Maintenance is hard. I am in the up zone of my range. I would rather be in the lower range. You are so right. You need to live as healthy as you can in this life.

    Good luck with staying within your range in the stressful holiday season. You can do it. emoticon
    1899 days ago
  • RUDITUDI2000
    H Maintenance is hard! I lost 40 and gained some back...Now on downward spiral again. You do not want to have to buy bigger clothes like I did , that stinks!! So the struggle is one worth fighting, as you are living proof! Its hard either way. Pick your hard is what I keep telling myself... Health is the one thing that makes everything better. Taking care of ourselves is worth the effort.
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    1899 days ago
  • FIT12BEE
    Life is a bumpy road at times but WW has taught us to wear a seat belt. I know you will get through this stretch. emoticon
    1899 days ago
    Oh, I can relate. I'm also fluctuating about 5 or 6 pounds over what I was a year or so ago, and yet 80 pounds below my all time high.I've been at a healthy BMI now 3.5+ years. I'm proud and yet scared. Maintenance isn't easy. I still believe it is worth it. Finding the happy weight and the strength and will to live there is a tremendous challenge.

    Treating your good health as a gift is very wise. Best wishes for continued success!
    1900 days ago
  • CHUM48
    It seems the things I want to say to everyone is please be kind, please be gentle to yourself! Everything in our life is a process, it calls on you to just take a step, its one step and then the next and the next becomes easier! Please be kind to yourself!
    1900 days ago
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