Thursday, December 06, 2012
I just let myself go..completely. I had a death, an almost death (ICU for a month) a house fire, but honestly though these all happened to Father's, brother's and sister's they did not happen to me. I was under stress I turned to food. I spent far more than I should have traveling, donating, giving, and shrugged my shoulders saying what else could I do.
Maybe nothing as far as the travel, the donations, the expenses that come with one family event, let alone three, BUT I could have held on to my workouts and eating correctly. I could have HELD ON to my integrity instead of driving into fast food.
One thing I did do, without even realizing it. I quit drinking. I do not have a drinking problem, but I did drink now and then. I don't anymore. I am not saying I will never have another glass of red wine with a dinner, but I am no longer interested in hanging out at the bar, or meeting friends for drinks.
I would rather spend my time with my family. I would rather meet my friends at a zumba class or a Holiday show. Maybe I am "old" at 44, but I really could care less about meeting friends and ordering round after round. It seems like a waste of time, lets go, see, do...but let's not sit, drink, and accomplish nothing.
i am starting over and I feel like I am literally PICKING UP THE Challenge before me. I am sick of this damn weight! Just SICK of it.
Did I mention I was actually physically sick from Sept...until, well I actually am taking antibiotics right now. LOL. DID you know obese people get sick more? I did not, but it stands to reason their immune systems would be compromised. Did you also know that my mobility is becoming compromised by lack of use?
Move it or lose it really does apply. I am talking walking. Oh, I can walk, but I find myself telling my son to hurry on ahead to his basketball game, so he is not late waiting for me to make it. My 5th grader is faster than me. People walk around me, impatient and in a hurry. I struggle with tying my shoes and I feel a tightness in my thighs. It is a struggle to bend over and pick up a paper I dropped.
When did this happen? I have to take control and I MUST do it now, otherwise it could really be worse. I used to do YOGA for goodness sakes. I am getting back on track. This is my promise to myself.