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The last time I was at this weight ...

Thursday, December 06, 2012

... I was getting ready to go to my 25th college reunion, and I was upset because I felt like it was the most overweight I'd ever been in my life. To be honest with you, that's not actually true, but it's how I felt at the time.

None of my clothes fit, so I did a quick shopping trip to buy a few things I knew would be "temporary." I was shocked at how large a size I needed, and how expensive they were. Boy, do I wish I'd had your advice to go to a consignment shop then! Anyway, I got a few things to get me though the weekend, and although they did fit, they weren't flattering. The upside was that I had some clothes to wear that didn't look completely ratty. I got through the weekend, but didn't feel very good about myself.

A year later, I couldn't fit into those clothes anymore. You guessed it: they were too small. Those "temporary" clothes were temporary for all the wrong reasons.

Flash forward to this week's weigh-in. The last time the scale registered 162, I was despondent, and determined to lose weight right away. You know how that ended: I didn't.

This time, just yesterday, when the scale registered 162 -- the exact same number, mind you -- I was delighted. Why? Because now the needle is headed in the right direction, steadily and consistently. Unlike 2 years ago, I don't fear gaining more weight right now. In fact, it is just the opposite. I know I won't gain weight right now. My body is feeling clean and energetic, and I think somehow it WANTS to let go of those extra pounds that slow me down and make my joints hurt. My habits are good, really good. Healthy choices I used to have to think about are becoming increasingly automatic. There is no way I will gain back any of that weight.

Out of curiosity, I tried on those "temporary" clothes of 2 years ago -- and they fit! They still aren't very flattering, but they look clean and they do fit. Again, I was delighted and felt it as a success. Wearing those (frankly, ugly) clothes again is an indicator that I'm on the right track, headed in the right direction, with SP and momentum on my side.

By next year, I vow, those temporary clothes will be out of my life forever ... but this time for the right reasons.

Onward to Month 2!
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    Yes, you are on the right track CSAgirl. I've seeing your upright spirits and your hard work. Even with those itself, you are on the right track. Keep on doing what you doing. And before you know it, you'll be looks like when you were in your teen. (^!^)) enjoy your college reunion this weekend !!

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    Keep it up
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