Thursday, December 06, 2012
I'm not really sure how to start this so I'll just jump in.
I joined Spark People just over a month ago. I have 50lbs to loose and I've been doing great. I lost half a stone in the 1st 3 weeks and feel so much better for it.
Then I started adding in exercise - namely a 2 mile walk most days and coach Nicole's 28 Day Bootcamp DVD and I didn't loose anything this week. That knocked my confidence even though I can feel the difference in my fitness from the exercise. I know I can't expect to loose every week and I'm probably putting on muscle from the exercise but it still got to me. I feel like those are just excuses. So I committed that cardinal sin and I weighed myself mid-week - it was horrible. Normally I make sure I weigh myself first thing after visiting the bathroom but before breakfast and only wearing my underwear - this time of course I just stepped on the scales mid-day in all my clothes after lunch and needless to say they said I'd put half of what I lost back on. I tried to laugh it off but it has upset me.
Then I splashed out and bought a fitbit one. It was almost a symbol of my commitment to my new life. I had it a week and was a bit confused as it seemed to be telling me I was burning more calories than I expected so I wasn't sure if I was eating the right amount but I felt I was getting a handle on it. And then yesterday it dropped off. It was clipped on my bra inside my clothes as usual when I left for work and then in the afternoon it was gone. I'm gutted as £80 isn't a small amount for me to loose. I've searched and searched but I can't find it. I can only hope that it dropped off on the train and some kind soul has handed it in to lost property.
I ended up having KFC for dinner and now I'm really depressed and wondering if it is all worth it.....
Desperately in need of some good news and advice x