It'll be 9 months on the 16TH since I decided to get my a** into gear and get the weight off that had been burdening me. I've managed to drop 90 lbs so far in that amount of time. It's amazing to me that in such a relatively short amount of time I have made such a huge change to my body, and made it MUCH healthier! The weight I had gained, I gained quickly. So quickly it was scary, and I'm kind of shocked I didn't end up having a heart attack or stoke! I'm only 21 years old, why on Earth would I want to put my body through that, when I could be losing the weight to give myself a better, happier, and HEALTHIER future? I'm not sure why I let it go on for those couple of years that I completely let myself go. I'm not sure what snapped inside of me on March 16, 2012 that made me decide I'm going to get myself into good shape by eating right and working out. It wasn't thought out or planned, but enough was enough! I was sick of the chest pains and feeling sick all of the time from large amounts of bad food. Food that really shouldn't be eaten at all, or at most very rarely I was eating in very large amounts ALL the time. Sometimes several times in only one day. I was killing myself.

When I look at the before photos of me, before I started this journey I'm disgusted. I'm still so shocked I was ever actually THAT big. I guess I just didn't pay attention. And I also had a husband who was always telling me how stunning I was and all, and I just didn't pay attention to the 320 lb unhealthy woman I had become in so little time.

I'm thankful every single day that I made the changes to my lifestyle, and that I didn't wait any longer. This choice was the best I ever could have made. It's scary to think about where I might have ended up if I continued eating like I was. I already had high blood pressure, what else would have happened? SCARY...

The truth is I let myself go, it was me, and me alone. I can blame no other but myself. I also made the choice to get on track and lose this weight, and for that I am thankful, as well as proud. I never thought I'd weigh more than 250, when I was around that weight and eating a lot, I thought that's as big as I'd get. When I actually ended up getting up to 320 lbs, I was completely shocked and DISGUSTED with myself. I've moved on and let go of that woman I once was. But I will always regret letting myself get that out of shape and just plain fat. All I can think about now is that I'm so happy I've made the changes that I have made.

90 LBS DOWN SO FAR. 90 LBS OF FAT OFF OF MY BODY. IN A LITTLE OVER 8 MONTHS. WOW.

Here is a look at where I've been and a few recent photos! Need some new body shots though! I have some mirror ones! They'll go in order of date!





















The last one is the most recent progress picture I have and it's from the middle of October. So I will definitely be getting more, very soon! I'm going to post a few recent self taken images and the first 2 photos will be from the start of my journey (and the mirror was is a few months before I started), all of the rest will be from within the last month or so. Very recent.




RECENT PHOTOS.











I'm still shocked at just how much I really have changed in every way. It's such a rewarding feeling knowing that my hard work and dedication is paying off so much. It's what makes me wanna finish this out and live a healthy life for the rest of my life. SparkPeople has helped me so much, and I thank all of you who have followed my journey!