Wednesday, December 05, 2012
Did lose 1 more lb this month which is still my goal....maintain or slow loss. Deep down I wish it would be more but I am trying to stay real...my clothes feel great...but I know I could be just a little lighter...Again trying to live life so that I can manage and MAINTAIN what I have achieved. I do not want to ever go back to being that fat and unhappy person. Life circumstances may make me unhappy but I can control how fat I am. I am scared to death to gain but I know that I must find the right eating and exercise routines that I can live with for a very long time. I cannot revert back to the old complacent, oh to hell with it attitude I once had. Oh poor poor pitiful me. The victim of everything bad that comes my way. Nope. Will not go there...it started to happen last year from feb till may (14lbs worth) but I made a rebound and have taken this weightloss and healthy body to the next level. I am just so scared of the backsliding!
Just getting my thoughts down....
Getting tired of the same old same old with my food but when I divert cals go up. Plus I try something and its not all that good and think i shoulda just eaten something normal/Cajun for that many cals! Stew made with roux is calling my name...but that means sooo many extra carbs. I do it every once in a while but know its gonna be an overage. Now is not really the time for comfort food with holiday eating around every corner.
Still in range but not satisfied. Maybe it's a mood?
One week I am so into planning, prepping, cooking and actually enjoying the healthy choices and then bam! I am sick of it and nothing tastes or feels satisfying. The PMS and emotional eating are a constant battle. Just when I think I am tracking the cycle I am thrown for a loop. Just living in fear I guess!?!?
Oh well, moving on...