I like to drink.
I like wine.
I like beer.
I like alcohol period.
We all know alcohol lowers your inhibitions.
For me, this means it makes me not care about what I put in my mouth.
I will eat anything not good for me; chips, cookies, bread, anything processed and refined. And not just a little. A lot. I mean, A LOT, A LOT.
I keep kicking myself for re-gaining all this weight. I can blame it on not exercising consistently, having one too many "cheat days," or just generally being lazy. I could blame it on losing my job. Or not having a vehicle anymore.
No matter what I blame it on, there seems to be ONE single contributing factor for me. And, it's alcohol. ANYTIME I have just one too many glasses of wine, or one too many beers I eat. Not only do I eat, but I LOSE SLEEP. Losing sleep for me is even worse than the eating. Because then, not only do I eat the night of the drinking, but I wake up feeling tired, groggy, and sometimes hungover.. which makes me want to EAT the next day too!
SOOOO.. I needed to write this blog because I had to put this in writing. I had to admit to this, not just in my head anymore.
I'm not going to stop drinking completely.
But, I am going to cut down. I am going to cut up a bunch of veggies. I need something easy to grab. I am going to drink water every other drink when I go out.
I will stop not caring, and care about myself again. This, I think, is the hardest part for me.